Scienza Concerto

What is life? Life is short.

2012-02-18T03:13:00.000-08:00

What would happen for the next second? Could you ever predict it? Thing comes fast and sometimes you have no time to either react or response. Your impulse does not ready for it, and yet you have to accept and get screwed by the consequences. This is life.

Buddhist believes that life is suffering and things happened for a reason even though you're unconscious of it. It makes me realize how important things are, and what is actually the most important thing in life that you need and have to treasure on.

Sometimes, reason is unknown. Uncertainties flow in as factor and that's it. People filled with emotion and that's the thing that screwing you badly: fear, sadness, tears, frightening, depression & etc..negative.

There is no answer for either the world is fair or not, this is life, you couldn't control. So guys, cherish the precious things around you, balance your lifestyle and slow down your footstep for a moment to enjoy the beauty of something that you've left out for a while. Always think positively or else you will never enjoy the life to the fullest with the most peaceful, sincere and optimistic heart.

Darling, it is tough. No matter what or how, I will always be there for you and give you the fullest support & comfort. Even though the losses piece could not be replaced, but I will hold you and walk through it.

I Love You, Darling.

H

11 months Anniversary

2012-02-15T19:48:00.000-08:00

It's not a suitable time to wish..
Something unexpected happened..
But as promised..
I will be at your side forever..
You're the only guy I would treasure with all my heart & soul..
No matter what..
I won't voice a word..
My arms are yours..
You'll never lost..
Time heals..

I Love You, Darling.

Honey

2nd day of CNY 2012

2012-01-24T07:53:00.000-08:00

Gambling just isn't my cup of tea. Rather watching aside, time was made used to spit some letters deep inside there......

My bad temper seems to be back on track since after August, a drastic decision and changes come simultaneously. Sacrifices on working until late night to ensure the work flow never delayed in between, no complaints being made, never give up due to exhaustion. But, excuses were made where tiredness is the factor triggering the bad gesture and hot temper, what a failure..

I love my family, regretness filled at the next second once the unreal and uncontrolled expression being shown. Reminded again and again after each incident but no improvement shows up. What's the point even the feeling of guilt was felt, the conscience is there? and yet there is no action to prove me right.

If this is able to be solved, it's all the matter on new resolution.

Let's see.

Gesture (9/10/2011, 10.34am)

2011-10-08T19:23:00.000-07:00

Got so mad with the nasty gesture shown by my dad..
why can't we all just simply have a peaceful and calm talk..
instead with a yelling, shouting, scolding tone..
I am not complaining..
but we don't feel good..
This is not the culture we should have..
Good communication will not be existing if this thing happened to be unstoppable..
We are part of your family, you can talk nicely to others, but......

WHY CAN'T YOU JUST TALK NICELY TO US, WHY!!!!!!!!

WTF!

Tough

2011-10-06T08:10:00.000-07:00

Be strong.

25/9/2011

2011-09-24T23:07:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I had never felt this kind of menstrual cramps that struggled me badly. The most was fainted in the school hall during graduation rehearsal of my form 6, but at least that was just a few minutes.

It was screwing my nerves badly, my lower abdominal was happened to be contracting non-stop and real breathless. I had almost got into faint condition but luckily there was someone hugging me tightly.

I was not in the mood for pass 3 days. Being silent to get some peaceful mind, that was kind of unexplainable self-conflict. He wished to know what actually goes wrong. Even though I can't really speak out the incident to him even to myself, he tried so hard to get me a bouquet of roses and movie time. Honestly, I got so melted to him and wish to give him the whole person of mine. Wonderful night.

It was touching when he hugged me tightly in his arm while suffering the menstrual pain. He could stand the sweat sticking and flowing between us, he never failed to comfort even he was suffering from sore throat. The tiredness shown on his face, I wish to take care of this guy forever, I love him, very much.

Before he left, he spoke:" Let me know if you feel suffer again, I will come back immediately to take care of you". My tears dropped unconsciously, hugging him real tight at the same time. I need him, my Darling.

Darling,
I am sorry for pass few days on my gesture that cause you very headache. Though I have promised to speak out the problem immediately no matter what. I do try to make it but I was not sure what's wrong with me this time, not your fault but just my inner side of confliction. I am trying my best to get myself to be well soon, and to tell you once I get the reason clear. I love you.

You will never know how important you are in my life. As I said, I have made my choice and you are the one. I love you very much, and always be.

I Love You, Darling.

18.7.2011

2011-07-18T06:21:00.000-07:00

I wish that miracles do happen to me. Is that possible to go back to the past, its not a smart question, forget it.

Nothing big deal, it's good enough to have such an opportunity and all the great deal surrounded. Yet, i am not happy since the decision being made, i spoil the happiness that i feel a lot comfortable..I was telling people that i am going to fight the tide away from comfort zone, a huge sentence spoken bravely with confident, I am going to give it a kick!

Yes, what I expected in happening right now, people are not that nice. I gave up all the opportunity given, but chose the tough route. How brave I was. I manage to take all the challenges, but my heart isn't there.

I never expect to be so moody and dull, my mind is still surrounded with all the sweet time in the past, since after watching from a different angle. You will never know how it feels after you have really tried it. But then, there is no turning back, no more. You have made it and you need to bear it, it's a responsibility.

Too easy, but it turns out difficult. Lots of thing to sacrifice, are you ready for that? It comes all together in a sudden without your notice. You can't help but to take it and swallow it silently.

You have a choice, but the feeling won't be the same as in the past.

You can't blame anyone, but to yourself.

No matter you are happy or not,

Take it, swallow it, be silent, and move on.....

Happiness? Passion? Money?

2011-07-17T05:44:00.000-07:00

Which would you prefer? Or shall I say, you do not even have a choice but to choose the most reality one. Come to this point, I certainly realize what people always say: work is demotivating, monday blue, thank God it's friday..it is saddening, dull and colourless life..I do not wish to encounter this stage..never hope for..

I am in the mid of rescuing myself by non-stop pulling myself out of the cage. Stubbornness and emotion are killing me real badly these weeks. It's hard to slaughter my piece of flesh to accept things really friendly.

Happiness is found after stepping into working life, it had been some times for never felt and tasted the kind of satisfaction, hopes, joys..the most important, I am doing something that I love, everyday! Work challenges, problem solving satisfaction, everything comes with passion which eventually lead me to a happy life. Passion is directly proportional to happiness.

Tears were hardly controlled and eventually dropped almost every week. It's tough, a place that i am not familiar and i am so anti to it. Never thought I will behave this way, so negative......

Choice is being given again but it's once again a tough question to be answered because there is no turning back once decision had been made at the first place. No doubt we should go for what our heart speaks, but in the world of reality you will always meet complicated people, never underestimate them.

It's sunday night, emo-ing for tomorrow's journey back to Rawang, really unwillingly, but I have to. My tears was tough enough from spitting out this time, I hope it is sustainable throughout the week.

I am lucky enough to have him, he is always there for me no matter what. A caring, charming, lovely boyfriend of mine, time to time showing me his broad smile. I love him. Good night darling, I love you so much than what you expect.

17.7.2011

09/06/2011

2011-06-09T04:46:00.000-07:00

Have you seen the guy as shown below? Let me tell you some story about him......

Slight curly hair, long side burn, obvious mustache and beard, small little eyes, thick fleshy lips, sweaty nose, moderate size of tummy......you can see all the significant features from this picture, except the tummy..whahahaha...But..there is always a but, it is real nice to sleep on..just for me =)

I miss him so badly..........

=(

24/5/2011

2011-05-28T01:13:00.001-07:00

Quite emotional for the whole day, things did not come out as what I wish, quite a frustration. RHB account was failed to be created as my IC’s chip has deteriorated. That fella did not even try out but conclude such rubbish, and yet I took all my way from Rawang to Sg. Buloh with few missing junctions and finally reached that place and get to meet this bastard. Great. Second day, I went to JPN for IC renewal. I had a meeting to attend and so I reached there at 7.30am in order to get thing done quickly for the meeting. Unfortunately, the system was down and I waited for 1 hour ++. Great, I was late for the meeting. I began to be so emo and moody, there were 4 wedding dinners: his sister, his best friend, Kelvin’s and my uncle’s, I could not even attend one of it, but staying alone in Rawang. Why..? Yes, because I have moved to new company, KLK. And so I need to scarify while I am not available to apply any leave yet. I want to see him badly, I want to attend any occasion with him………it’s all occupying my mind………..that’s why I am so emo with such a “Great” day…….

I miss Carotech. I wanted to shout that I miss Ipoh food so much. I can’t even get my appetite activated for food in Rawang. I think, it just because of adaption problem.

Pray that I manage to withstand and overcome all the obstacles and grow up!!

24/5/2011 (Tuesday)
10.05pm

21/5/2011

2011-05-28T01:10:00.000-07:00

Darling,

I have seen your note, and very thanks for that, it made my day. I love you much.

A rainy evening right now, 8.31pm and just had my dinner alone. It has been the 6^th day in Rawang, still in the mid of adapting new life here, I mean, the new career. I guess you are in the plane right now, heading south to Singapore for your sister’s wedding, the wish of being at your side right now never stop floating in my head. My tears were shading my sight for your leaving. Yea, I am missing you a lot here. No doubt that my father’s friends used to describe me as a crying baby.

Don’t feel sorry for your unclear expression or elaboration, that is fine Dear, it shows how important you are. Phobia is weakening my confident on hoping you to strive for me, problem comes from me apparently.

I know it took some times for me to really accept you as my boyfriend, because I never want to take relationship for granted. I do not wish to decide recklessly without deep consideration or just for moment happiness. I am serious in it and I would never hope anyone get hurt. But you were hurt when I solved the problems immaturely. I scolded you in the chat room and caused you to smoke. You took up any decision made by me even if you were sad but never come against me. Seeing you with droplet of tears in the car, I was sad and sorry. I understood your feeling.

But, certainly, love towards you is actually growing that time. At that point, I am afraid of losing. It challenged me once again. It froze me from moving further when I decided to. Avoidance was happening in interruption. You never failed to comfort and persuade me by addressing me as Honey in text msg, I remembered. It is warm..really warm…

Even there was a moment we backed to friendship, you were asking for holding my hand. I was glad that you were still never giving up on loving me. My heart was talking to you when you were cuddling from my back tightly in your car: “Are you fine darling, how are you recently? Am I hurting you badly? Do you know that I am actually wanting you so much but needing time to get rid of the phobia?” It was certainly selfish that my own problem being brought on but it hurts you badly.

My flu told me on how much I need you. I felt so cold and needed your arms so badly. And you gave me unconditional warms and comforts.

Although I felt a little odd when our hands were firstly crossed, but it was still warm. I could see your happy expression, cute and silly J

I would never forget our first kiss, that is the most memorable for me. You are gentle and tender which made me fall into you. You are the only one since I have decided. I wish and hope we can be together and last forever.

Stepping out from comfort zone and left my hometown to a new place for new career is definitely a new challenge for me, and also for us. It was a tough decision and I made myself an unexpected choice. People said that I am silly by choosing a tough one. But, I hope I can really take it and live life to fullest and be successful one day. Another factor is, my dad willing to travel non-stop for his jobs and never give any complaint even it is tiring. And so I as a daughter, whom is still young, should take up the responsibility for my family. Initially, I made it for family and myself. Now, you are counted in.

You cried badly before leaving Rawang day before my first day at new company, my heart was sourly broken into pieces. Yes, that was the first time I had seen you broke down unstably. Seriously I wish to be at your side all the time. I enjoy working under same company with you; I enjoy riding your car for dinner after working hour; I enjoy chit chatting and cuddling silently in your car; I enjoy hugging you in the night; I enjoy kissing you under the pillow before you sleep; I enjoy when you kucik me madly; I enjoy teasing you to earn your big laugh; I enjoy wearing your green “burp” T-shirt and using your green towel; I enjoy watching at your so called “dangerous” look; I enjoy eating chocolate symphony at Citrus with you; I enjoy eating fruits coated with riched and melted milk chocolate with you at 1 Utama; I enjoy playing with your mustache; I enjoy watching movie with you; I enjoy watching Dexter with you; I enjoy fighting with you via Street Fighter; I enjoy playing Tetris with you although you don’t like that much; I enjoy blowing on your bouncy tummy by making the funny sound etc………..

Sweetheart, you are definitely my greatest boyfriend ever, whom is being considerate from time to time. I love you.

Honey

21/5/2011 (Saturday)

10.17pm

Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-08T00:33:00.000-07:00

Happy mother's day to all the mommies. Enjoy your big day with your family with greatest loves! I love you my dearest mum!!

The special one with the letter "D"

2011-05-08T00:00:00.000-07:00

D stands for Daddy, the greatest guy of mine since I am created by God.

The second D stands for Darling, whom I am going to mention here literally, is appeared in my life since December 2010.

A quiet guy when I 1st met him, less words but love to laugh which indirectly bring lots of happiness, subtle yet influencing. Though usually remain silent, feelings told me that something unsettled was sinking at the deepest side of his heart, a harmless prediction.

I got his msn contact to invite for company weekly badminton game as he loves sport. We chatted alot and offered supports and cares to each other. Later, he dated for tennis game at Perak Stadium, dinners and suppers. It changed my perception where a quiet guy could share alot in chat room and time when we were alone. We are similar, where we depressed from previous matter relates to love. He is a loyal guy, but somehow stubborn which was killing him quite badly for several years. I wished I could help as I understand the kind of feeling perhaps. Then, he was trying to open up his heart to me, this is when chance was created. Confession from him get things started right away =)

The road wasn't smooth at the beginning, going up and down. Lack of communication causes problem existed. There were few times situation trapped under depression, things would never be hoped. We had serious talk almost every week, we just wish to be better by observing and realizing the problems. We want it to work out. A night, I requested to be normal friend for further understanding before back to be couple again. He was sad and hardly take it. I felt sorry but could not help.

He is nice guy. He pours his real heart to me unconditionally by providing loads of supports, cares, comforts and compliments without any complaints.

He joined a marathon competition in KL. We made it as 2 days trip. I was enjoy spending time with him. In the morning, I was waiting his return from the competition, I wanted to tell him that he is great and well done by hugging him. Gut of mine was weak to tell.

He was tired after the race and leaning on my arms. His eyes were whole red, hair were messy. His mind and soul were exhausted. I forced for letting me to drive him home.

Progress of being "friend" was doing positively. He managed to speak openly and naturally without worries, and same to me, without any pressure. I hope it same goes to him as well. After back from KL trip, i fall sick. Recalled, I sneezed badly in the office, I was asked to apply MC by my Manager but I didn't. Thanks for the concern. After work, he looked for me. I lyed in his arms..and he was cuddling me gently..it was comforting, gentle and warm which made me wanted to fall sleep without bordering the suffers of my nose. Kisses on my forehead and intimate cuddling from him are lovely..I could not resist my heart's will and finally kissed on his lips. I was totally melted into him. The cool surrounding with his warm and tight hug were simply awesome. You won't want it to stop but just let it continue entirely.....

Trombone gold necklace was something that I've craved for so long and I got it from him. Such a romantic guy I've ever met. Honestly, I love it very much.

We made things work at the end by get rid most of the major obstacles between us..and I am feeling honoured and appreciate with what I am having. Thank God for everything.

By now, I should change my hot temper personality..I can and I will..

By tomorrow, I will be heading to new company for new career, namely Palmamide Sdn Bhd, the subsidiary of KLK Sdn Bhd.

Happy Wesak Day!

Y.S.F.
15/5/2011

Personality

2010-12-03T20:36:00.000-08:00

Apparently, personality seemingly to human's trait or variation, it could be similar among individuals but not identical. Even for a pair of identical twin, their personality would partly be significant. it describes what people set their own mindset - principle

Things always being harmonized with toleration at a neutral barrier, which somehow difficult to be bared if one does not have a warning limit with a very strict and narrow control limit. Conflict occurs, and so the origin of enemies and wars. It is saddening. Anyhow, life will not be smoother without passing through billion of thorns.

Different stories and background among individuals, and these create the personal principle and characteristic. We see things differently by 360 degree of angles, different perception of life, despite races and citizens, it happens even in a same group of people. It is proven where at the current civilized world, partly of them are preferred to be remain staying in the forest as their ancestor, which hugely emphasize the term of respect.

Different backgrounds create the current personality. People normally walk on the path that replace and fulfill their wills, needs and desires that previously undone. Furthermore, our level of demands are differ as well. No comments and critiques are allowed, but to respect each others principle. Be positive and supportive instead of criticize.

However, approachability segregates to sincerity and motive. Someone approaching with motive, they ignore anything just for you to step into their advantage, with a bunch of untrusted words. Just because of bad feeling to reject, accepting in a way of struggles and unwillingness, which suffering myself for the entire dates. Eventually, things end with a bad gesture.

Learn to say NO and REJECT discreetly and skillfully, it could make things better, at least.

Happy birthday to Bee Yoong, my naughty yet cute friend ever.

4th December, 2010.

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2010-11-05T09:14:00.000-07:00

Have been working in Chemor HQ office for 1 month plus, life goes on as usual. It's a great opportunity to be involved under research field. Hoping for contribution very much, no doubt, extra effort is essential. Day by day, I turned to be better for even a very tiny yet crucial thing in my daily life. Self improvement and upgrading in every extent and situation are things that I crave very much to excel. Appreciate very much for all the guidance and comments given by all my fellow colleagues, they are nice and helpful.

Time flies, 3 months working in Chemor will be ended very soon. I do enjoy alot working and having fun with them. Gonna miss the people very much.

Things always bid with goodbye. Sigh..

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2010-11-05T08:20:00.000-07:00

Humans are odd. When u're approaching them, they seems to treat you loosely; When you tend to give up on them, they blame you for not concerning. They are here when problem encountered, lots of complaint and thought. They will ignore after problem is solved. This is how great a friend could be, no, just a portion of them.

The island of food, foods and foodss.

2010-08-30T06:33:00.000-07:00

I had actually dragged it for few months, and finally fulfilled my promise to visit my buddies in Penang, the Perlis UNIMAP gang. A blissful trip I would say =)

Taking 8.30am bus heading north with enriched excitement, it has been 10 months since the last meet in Perlis. Most of them are working in Penang now as that's an ideal place for engineering field. Day dreaming in the bus is one of my favourite to fill my boredom besides listening. Passed by Progenix located few miles away from Bukit Mertajam, recalled the nervous yet challenging interview I had last year, goose bump!

Finally, first sight to my long lost yanching a.k.a cbk, feel honored to be fetched by her and we had our "romantic" talk on the ferry accompanied by swirling wind gently beating on our faces.

Met the rest in Queensbay: Hooi Tit, Siew Chui, Pei Shan and Kuang, and we headed to a Taiwan food restaurant. Both of us stepped in to look for them with our shades on. An aunty whispered to her daughter not to get near to the 2 shaded jie jie. What an embarrassing scene. Satisfying lunch filled my tummy evenly.

Their house was the next stop. The initial plan to bowling club was canceled as we were over tired and fall asleep in the noon. Aggressiveness of the bright sun dropped our eyes naturally. An hour later, Hooi Tit suggested for asam laksa at BB corner but unfortunately it was not operating. We decided to take our shower and straight for thai's food dinner, woohooo! Here are some leng luis pic as your appetizer =p

3 8 ing

Only the self-loving and slutty lady facing the lens (kidding =p)

Look at the sexy butt in the middle and sexy shoulder on the left

Next, we dined at a Thai's food restaurant introduced by Dennis Dominic Donald, yea our new friend a.k.a hooi tit / ljk's bf! On the way:

Quite an appetizing dinner with few pictures for your reference:

Next station was introduced by yanching, I have forgotten the name. Basically the cafe was located at the seaside serving snacks, beers and many others beverages. We indulged Tiger beers while enjoying the sea-breeze and the sea wave gentle beating the shore repeatedly. Chit-chatting and joking for the whole night and challenged cuppa beers with some tricks, joyful ever.

All of us were shot til partially drunk. 6 of us had our great night by sleeping on only 3 beds. We are skinny =) They said that my saliva was actually dripping during the sleep. I don't think so because they love to lie at me just to make me feel guilty and bad. If that's the fact, their bed sheets would smell good, and I would glad to say that my saliva is the souvenir I brought =)

We had dim sum as our breakfast, and I met Teong Hoe and Shong Chee there. They do really made my day by keeping my broad smile widely. Silly human beings including me. Yanching and me joined Dennis's ride to Gurun for Hooi Tit to collect her cert. Dennis was surrounded with crazy yet weird laughters. I wonder how could he stand us as our sounds overwhelmed his car, pity!

They mentioned about Japanese language. 2 new words of the day- yamateh and kimochi. Goodness! Let's guess where would both words normally appeared? guess it. and i'm gonna state the meaning here:
yamateh: don't do it
kimochi: damn comfortable

That's the hint. Any idea? =p

Hooi Tit mum's char kuey teow was awesome! I love that! Again, we had asam laksa opposite Penang Girl School or behind Tanjung Medical Centre, it's my type due to the moderate spice level which lightly stimulate my tongue buds followed by impulse and secretion of hormone to increase my appetite! 1 bowl was not sufficient and eventually I stole extra mee from yanching, thanks!!

We discussed about my experience working in Ipoh General Hospital - the sperm count. From day 1 to 2, Dennis doesn't really response to us with all the random topics EXCEPT sperms. He was specially concern about it and I can actually offer by having his "sample" for investigation.

It's time to leave for bus station. Had another great talk in the room and car. They are ppl who I would cherish and appreciate so much.

I found that the elasticity of my bladder can be very flexible sometimes, but so restricted at the other time. so emotional.

I miss them very much already.

Guys, thanks alot.

Interesting day (23/08/10)

2010-08-23T00:14:00.000-07:00

I love talking science with Kai Li;

I love talking photography with kai lui- Sing Ean.

Fabulous day I had =)

Great weekend - month of Ramadhan

2010-08-22T04:00:00.000-07:00

The annually event in the month of Ramadhan is here! First comes to your mind of course the things that could not be missed and lessen - buka puasa food. Yes, it's food again.

After 5 working days, here comes the everyone's favourite weekend. If there was empty schedule, normally i would laze around with tv, computer, books, paper and of coz, family.

My dearly cousin baby boy was coming for visit us. Great bond between me and him as he came for a month last year after first stepped into this world. So green and innocent in observing things surrounded him, breath lightly to understand the pumping of heart beats, cried helplessly for expressing his insecure heart. Now, he has grown up and heading 1. Cute boy whom always give me a broad smile which touched my heart deeply.

We went to a lot that full of counters selling malay's food. That's for buka puasa. They served variety of foods and it's truly mouth-watering. They able to cater wide range of customers including non muslim. As you know, Malaysia is a multiracial country, we accept, understand and enjoy others food as well. But, it's saddening for the recent news from of a sch principle from Kudai, Johor.

Those foods satisfied my tummy greatly, and my dinner might have to delay. In fact, I don't have much malay's friend, until I met my current company lab assistants whom are malays. Selamat Berpuasa to my muslim colleagues! =)

Stony silence night

2010-08-20T08:16:00.000-07:00

Friday midnight, my favourite moment as usual, to be able to chill in the stony silence zone.

In the previous entry, at least, i felt much better right now. There was misunderstanding. That's what people keep stressing on interaction. Thank God for the peace given. Things turned out to be positive actually, ambiguity was killing together with a few gloomy days.

The incident described how depress I was in the mist of challenging problem. I was brave enough to face it but got no gut to handle the consequences. I couldn't accept because I felt I'm not deserved in that way from what I had given and sacrificed.

But I have to standby, who knows it wouldn't exist no more? I don't wish to.

I should have prevent it by now instead of cure it.

Yes, I should.

13.08.2010 (Friday)

2010-08-12T20:05:00.000-07:00

The people named today as Friday 13th. Does it mean that bad luck will be everywhere? I do not hope this happen.

It's really tough. I have to learn the skills of handling it. How should I.

By the way, I will not give up.

I might be making wrong decision, just maybe.

God bless.

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2010-07-30T21:48:00.000-07:00

8am, grabbed a pear for detoxification and cleaning up my tract. That's a degenerating fruit as the taste went dull. Had a great breath in the garden and awesome breakfast spent with my dearest mum. 3 stuffs that I need to accomplish today: ATM, pen and dental clinic.

After clicked out some cash, went to The Store for my next station. Quite an effective one. Had a sudden great feel of being at The Store area early in the morning. Coincidentally, met the sales girl that served me last few days when I was purchasing refiller. My purpose was returning the previous purchased and replace with another pen due to my pen's crust rubber start to be deteriorating. I replaced with a quite satisfying pen, smooth ball pen in black. I love reading and love writing as well, so i'm sort of highly emphasized on the pen's quality. I need a comfortable pen in order to make me feel lovely and desperate in writing the insight of my heart, my soul, my mind. So, i won't hesitate to buy a slight expensive pen than the others. I don't feel that's a waste as long I'm using it worthy to pen on my precious moment and matter. I don't need to get you in agreeing it but to me, a pen is a knowledge.

Next stop, dental clinic to clean up the plaques and whatever foreign particles from my mouth. The experienced dentist talked alot with me, he advised me to take off one of the tooth so that my front bunny tooth will flat inside and back into right position. I told him the same sentence back in 2 years ago "let me consider it.." and surprisingly, he remembered. He mumbled me to give a quick decision. Ok ok 1 week more kay. He told me about his son, never study during primary and secondary sch time but addicted to pc games. His son did not fail in STPM and received the offer from local UNIMAS. Refused to join but applied Dentistry in India. He worried that his son will be having hard time but surprisingly, the son passed every semester and did quite a good result. Instead, those 4 flats in STPM candidates failed. So you know what, everyone owned a brain and you can, you able and you manage to success if you really pulled out the shit and put in your non-left efforts to everything you want to accomplish.

*Picture above doesn't represent my oral region, pic selected from Google image.

Nice weather, brilliant pen, nice teeth, awesome day!

Books

2010-07-28T08:46:00.000-07:00

I wanna get myself some books..I mean..more books..
Shall speed up for Twilight before putting myself in the bed of books..

Nights..

Mature

2010-07-12T21:23:00.000-07:00

I used to be serious in my work..not exeptional for now for sure.
Open my eyes widely and focus my brain only to 1 dot of point.
No day dreaming, no sleepiness, no relax and no laziness.
Work effectively and efficiently without lagging and wasting every second.
Apply it to work, to family, and to my favourites/ hobbies.
Live life meaningfully without regret.
Be cheerful and mature.
Be my OWN self instead of following the trend of the human behaviour from stage to stage.
She said: "why ain't you behave mature after working?"
I have my own way, I behave mature in solving problem. I will be totally different away from serious stuff.

Own judgement, own style, own mind, own way.

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2010-07-09T08:31:00.000-07:00

Infinity types of human being everywhere, you would not able to classify them one by one. Even some of them are similar, but they won't be identical. Humans are unique.

Despite the crowds, there are loads of distincts surrounding you. Let's zoom it to comfort zone- friends. I believe each of us has few categories of buddies. School mates, university mates, neighborhood, yum cha friends, partners, coworkers/ colleague, society mates, club mates, band mates, customers, suppliers, dealers, seniors, juniors, internet pals and etc. How would you define them and which of these categories is your favourite?

We will prefer to pour our heart to someone we feel comfortable and trustworthy; we will always be the one who contact them without pleasing; they will be the 1st one in mind whenever we need them lightly or badly. He/ she is not necessary a best or close friends of us, they could be possibly a friend that we just knew them few seconds ago, or even a stranger. How amazed it is.

Speaking of secondary friends, most of them were my classmates/ band mates. We grown up together with a very green heart, pure and innocent. We went through studies, band practise, competitions, games, fights, laughter, arguments, achievements, failures, exams and etc. Frankly speaking, it's a strongly built and thick friendships that wouldn't be simply weakening by anyone anywhere. Precious ever.

Band mates/ seniors and juniors, even there is generation gap or whatever obstacles, whenever we meet on the street, or the most obvious location that we will always be seeing each other- the band competition venue held annually. Even though we gather along once a year, or I should say, gather for only 6 hours annually (competition duration), but we spent the quality time meaningfully. We do miss each other, and we cherish.

University friends, I had 2 gangs. The 1st gang, they gave me deep memories during that short half years. They were helpful and we practice teamwork. No one work individually and everything was in 1. We share our opinion in every discussion, never stingy to sound out the point and precious information. I felt comfortable, but not the course.

Opposingly for 2nd gang, I felt comfortable with the course, but not the ppl. Most of them were actually nice, mostly from the cities, and we were not staying in hostel, attitude and behaviour were quite different among us, there were unidentifiable gaps. Thus, the culture was more to individual instead of group discussion. That was the imperfect that I felt. I met a few egocentric friends. I don't really understand sometime, whether they treated you as true or junk friend. No doubt that we helped alot, because we take her as true one, but after the task done, they turned around and walked away. Unless they need you. Their name will only appear on your phone screen ringing non stop during emergency and cry helplessly for help. And again, they walked away and never turn back until you call them. They scold and control your gesture, they want you to follow their subjective thinking without consider your unique nature mind. Sometimes, they realized, but it's too late as the disappointment and thorns poked irreversibly. It is definitely not a sweet memory for you, right? Selfish.

Finally, graduated and step into working life. Honestly, I'm so glad and feel greatly thankful to meet my current colleagues, they are truly nice bunch of coworkers to work with. Helpful and non-selfish kind of personality and characteristic, applause.

Ppl whom nice to you even only spend for 1 second, it is worth; ppl whom treat you badly even spend for 1 decade, it is wasting of time. I've promised myself to harden up my heart to those unworthy "friends". it sounds cruel, but I don't have the urge and earnest for them. no point man.

Next week will be the national band competition. My sch is participating and proudly present with the theme of The Prince of Egypt.

Good luck to all of us.

090610

2010-06-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

Just back from movie of Prince of Persia with doon ck , a great composed movie from video game. Admirer the graphic stuffs and the background, and not forget the original score, gonna dig it out from websites.

The Thais' teaching our band right now. These days were being there for glance through the drills. Everything has been almost perfectly done, remain the polishing part. Everything is inspiring, and great to meet some juniors and seniors as well like qin wei, justin, chow kong, wan ping, wei hoong, yee huai and so on..

Have been hanging out with friends at night these days, guilt filled up as i should be accompanying my mum and family, so decided to pull off badminton tomorrow night. Sorry guys.

I don't serve to beg, and I did my responsibility. I'm respecting, and I do hope u obey and doing the same thing back. You are not a kid, please grow up and get a life.

Bed time.

Jessica Capshaw

2010-06-07T19:53:00.000-07:00

Jessica Capshaw is brilliant!
Love the way she acts and the personality owned.

Random

2010-05-22T12:07:00.000-07:00

It's an untitled post..randomly typing this because i'm enjoying the peace and quietness of the night at 3.09am right now..similarly, it's time for midnight pee as well..

It has been a while.....

Know what, drama that i've craving for a long time- Grey's Anatomy, finally lent by ck. Credit to him. It's season 6, I was like non stop watching it throughout the day and night after got it in hand. I love that. Have seen loads of scenes from different angles such as career, life philosophy, relationship between humans, and the reality of the world could be. It's actually linked to what we are doing right now..for instance, the attitude that u presented in work, ur performance, complication when u were facing failure situation, and relationship. There could be true friends exist, and there is a portion with mask on them which u could never ever differentiate them out of the population except for period observation maybe? times proved.

Speaking about working part of the drama, when you achieved something, attentions and compliments come and you will work 2 times harder due to adrenalin rush; similarly, when you did a very slight or basic mistake that cause serious outcome, depression will be with you, but it will drive u back to work 2 times extra harder as well for proving yourself better and replace the injury with glory. Opposingly, when you worked very hard for something but got a harsh return, u can't please but have to accept it still..

Relationship, it's great to have someone supporting you behind on every single decision in whatever circumstances. But both have to reach the goal and point at the great timing, or else it ended with argument. Honesty and interaction make this better. Being single owning the advantage of freedom and doing things by own wish, it's awesome.

It's 4.11am..guess I need to get my ass on bed right now..

Night all..and Lee Jia Yin who is still chatting with me...

:)

Voice to be delivered

2010-05-13T07:32:00.000-07:00

Loads to share much to speak..but somehow I couldn't recognize which to start off..

I'm exhausted..

Perhaps re-scheduling is the best thing to do now..

Operate things effectively..

Keep my mind clear and smart..

Be more alert and fully focus on one point..

Brush up rapidly without any lagging and delays..

Speak confidently and never doubt myself..

A subtle changes could create me a totally different yet nice person..

Till then..

To Chemor Carotech

2010-04-17T19:58:00.000-07:00

Due to some critical reason, I had to send some samples to Chemor lab by myself. Although I went there once for interview, but I have forgotten the direction of destination. Bee Yoong was being so kind to show my way.

Reaching Medan Gopeng at 1.30pm, too bad my mobile battery was died, could not reach Bee Yoong. In a sudden she appeared, luckily! While she was showing the way, I found that I'm seriously a dangerous driver as what she commented. I could not focus well on one thing if i was doing two. As the concentration of chatting with her bigger than driving..there were few times I never realize the traffic light turned into red until she stopped me from further. Gosh!

Passed by her Hovid office, i love the green!! now only i know how the name of Hovid created from. Interesting. Chit chatting for the whole journey without realized that we had actually in Chemor area already. Turned into a road with the direction of Carotech showed. After negotiate for some time with the guard, then I stepped into it to search for the lab. After passed all the samples to the lab assistant, I went out through a very narrow entry. Thanks to the indian who showed me the direction, he was kind of funny one. 1stly, he asked me to drive slowly; 2ndly, he asked me to drive through a extremely narrow route stuffed with lots of drums; 3rdly, he asked me not to knock the guy infront of me. but he is very nice.

Next, we went for lunch at Green Town. Carried on with a short walk at Parade without any purpose. We talked alot and now you know how talkative Babi Yeoh Bee Yoong is. This fellow never want to lend me some water as I was thirst so badly. HUH!!!!!!! never sayang me at all! And only know how to eat and bought a pack of biscuit for HERself. you see..you see..YOU SEE!!
sei fei poh (actually she is skinny but owned a huge butt and 36D, nice feature) WHAHAHAHAHA....

After fetched her home SAFELY, I returned to Sitiawan. She felt bad leaving me TOO SOON, I knew it..right yeoh bee yoong. Anyway, great time spending up with you, and remember to bring me to next station some day- Dai Shu Keok & Dong Gu Teng. And I will bring u for seafood here as well.

That's all for today.

Worry

2010-04-16T15:27:00.000-07:00

I could not sleep soundly.....

I'm worry.....

Nikon D60

2010-04-10T00:01:00.000-07:00

My madness and passion for photography and finally, I got my very 1st DSLR- Nikon D60. Thanks Shan for providing loads of precious information accompanied with a reasonable price.

Basically, D60 is suitable for beginner in capturing good pictures. If you were really want to learn photography, this is ur good choice. It has 10.2MP consisting anti-dust system (image sensor cleaning system), whenever u change the lens, dust might trap into it which could affect the clarity and clearness of your image. Besides, The range of ISO option is wider than D40 from lowest 100 to maximum 1600. Besides, Nikon mainly created for manual control system instead of automatic like Canon. But, since it is a advanced beginner model, it could be switched to auto as well.

Will share some images after reading through the manual book. Again, finally I got it!!!! :D

Reunion with Mei Sze and Chow Kong in Sitiawan

2010-04-09T08:45:00.000-07:00

Outing at Sitiawan Old Town Kopitiam, another reunion of 3 of us as this culture has been started since last year while studying in KL..the bonds and warms are still remained as strong as covalent bond/ionic bond (strongest bond between atoms/molecules in Chemistry). Or I could say, our bond are as strong as a trombone with the slide, never apart or else function is definitely zero. ohh how come i use such a weird description where all of that were the interest of mine?

Because..

I'm unique.

Badminton game with colleagues

2010-04-09T07:22:00.000-07:00

Had badminton game on last Thursday night with my colleagues, activity that held by company and so, the court was free of charge. Have been so long never hold the racket since 1 year back- badminton match partnered with Evelyn in UTAR.

All of us played amazingly without care much for images. That's great as i dislike those whom act softly in sport.

2 hours non stop waving the racket and hitting the shutter-cork..flow of sweats on every part of my skin and fabric getting heavier..crazy laughter with relaxing conversation especially sp chan, and playing with hw was definitely a tough task to be done as i could feel my breathing was frequent and heavier..emmy was cute where she kept on jumping..chee wearing safety shoes (hard like rock) for the game..haha..

Great time with them..shall look forward for another battle on coming Thursday.

:-)

Shipment

2010-03-29T04:51:00.000-07:00

The very 1st time I went for shipment this morning after working in Carotech for almost 5 months. Quite excited with a little ambiguity. Arrived at the port at 6.30am after pass through custom. As i'm a newbie for shipment, my colleague (Loading master) taught me the procedures and steps that required. While awaiting for the arrival of ship, we did the preparation so that time consumed could be lessen. Attaching all the flexi-hole and rigid hole together by the technicians, things went smoothly. Finally, the long awaited ship, Southern Zebra arrived! Huge one! and the ship's name is cool. The lifter placed the so called bridge between shore and ship, quite slippery and steep. My colleague had difficulty on crossing onto the ship, and I lent a hand to her. I had no problem on that, luckily, thank God. We went into the cabin, better than what I imagine. After dealing with the chief (Korean) and signing all the agreements, the flexi-hole were proceeded to attach to ship hole. Meanwhile, I went for tank inspection with third surveyor. The ship tanks were huge, wide and tall..I have to climb down through the stair case to the basement of the ship where the tanks located. It's quite dangerous and I was very careful while climbing deep down. The third surveyor explained to me regarding the procedure. It was real fun! After that, I looked through all the sampling progress which make me fully understood with my eyes instead of just listening to speech. Suddenly, the third surveyor told me the ship's technician liked me, because they have being on the ship for 6 months without stepping on the shore, meaning that they never see girls for 6 months. Okay that's normal, but *run*!!!

There was actually another sampling after loading was completed but estimated it would be in the midnight already, third surveyor will complete for that.

Great experience I ever had. Will share more with various experiences.

Eyes

2010-03-27T21:11:00.000-07:00

I will never torture my kids until you see this:

I should have picking up for optometry surgery course as my skills were sort of great..
Again, her eyes burst-ed last 2 weeks ago..
just done operated it today..
By the way,
she still looks good as always.

:)

Nokia 5530

2010-03-26T08:19:00.000-07:00

Ladies and gentlemen, girls and boys..
Proudly present that this is my new phone!!
New phone wider storage..
to store my worthwhile memory in my life..
and eliminate off the unnecessary..
Cheer~

I miss u babi..

Finally

2010-03-19T23:59:00.000-07:00

The feeling has entirely faded and gone..
Burst out from the boundary..
Deleted all the inbox message..
I feel so relieve without guilt and regret..
I should do so since early..
Thanks Bee Yoong, Kah Bee, Claire and Huei Ling for those encouragements and advises..
I have made it guys!
This problem no longer affect me anymore..
Well, I should say that..
This problem not a problem to me anymore..
Because I won't even care much..
I live with dignity and respects..
If you step my nerve..
Don't talk to me..
Be respectful..

:)

My Convocation

2010-03-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

I'm here to proudly announce that I have officially graduated from University Tunku Abdul Rahman (UTAR)!!!!!!!

Woke with a broad smile fulled of excitation, packing and departing to KL with my parents and brother..My uncles and aunties prepared steamboat for our dinner, credits to them! Rich seafood and vegetable along with meats contribute to the heavy packed soup flavour, accompanied by smoothy beverages..awesomeness!!

After that, we went to IOI mall for a walk. Popular book fair was held at the center of the shopping mall, wanted to buy New Moon novel but I have a better plan anyway. Walk around the mall alone without wanting to get something..window shopping to calm my mind..haha..I found that my desire towards soft toys never fade..I'm still feeling the kind of excitement for those gift shops full of bears..After browse through the convocation handbook again at night to avoid any misleadings, i closed my eyes awaiting for another 12 hours.

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Heading to MCA San Chun hall at Ampang Park, the venue of my convocation. There is the place where I had my PSWO concert in year 2007. My attire and guest cards were collected by my authorized agent aka my best friend, kah bee. Due to the misleading by Ms. Stephanie Garmin Yap (her GPS), they got lost halfway and so I got into registration and robbing room quite late. Luckily Pik Geok, Wei Zteng and Say Khee gv me their hands, I was in a rush and mess that time. No blames to Kah Bee, but i would like to thank her for collecting the attire for me.

Dressed up myself with the rob..queue in a line..proudly stepped into the hall surrounded with grand classical music and the audiences..mum and dad were seated in the hall as well..Then, carried on with the alignment of academic and and profession possession, and lastly, the Guest of Honour, Mr. Cheng Hooi Paul Geh. After the speeches had been delivered, our turn to stepped up the stage to receive our scroll from the hands of guest of honour. Feeling proud on the stage and maybe i was too excited, my walking style was abit odd. That's fine :D

Graduated finally!!!! we having photo sessions at the entrance of the hall..full of joys and happiness with my coursemate as I hv never been seeing them for long since last year October. Lots of pictures were uploaded in my facebook, please refer.

After the ceremony ended, I had dinner with my family and 2 of my besties, Teck Poh (ex-housemate) and Juat Chin (ex-roommate). feeling great to gather with them. I was thirst badly that day as refreshment was not allowed in the hall. Bee Yoong was coming to meet us up to overnight at my aunt place with me.

Reaching aunt place at 10.30pm. we chit chat along until 4am..great talk and lots to share as we are working under the same company. Love to bully her so much where she can play crazily without getting mad. At the same time, she is a good listener as well. My baby cousin boy likes her so much because they have a significant thing- Big eyes :D

Next day morning, going to PJ UTAR to return the attire and collecting photos and degree cert. Then we have our brunch at Station 1 Cafe, another great moment.

Kah Bee fetched me to a nearby LRT station (Asia Jaya) for heading to Pudu Raya. Stephanie Garmin misleaded us again, haha..

While on my way home, I had mixed feeling to leave my friends..everyone is going back to our own place to live on for our future..this convo will be the last time for the gathering of this community of people..this scene is hardly to be seen after all..cherish the time people..

I have fully waken finally, only I know how much I love my friends and nothing can replace them besides family. I had deleted all the inbox messages in my mobile without regrets..I'm free and relieved where I will be the brand new me with a better mindset.

Some one special, I'm missing you..

Chinese New Year 2010

2010-02-19T23:03:00.000-08:00

Year 2010, a brand new year for me, which I've begun to place my feet into 100% world of adulthood, with a working life, a mature mind, here comes the resolution of mine.

Previous years when i was still in University, I filled my CNY with tons of reports, assignments and revisions. That wasn't fun especially when you were cracking ur head on writing and reading whilst your cousins were crazying around with games and foods. Can u feel the imbalancy?

Anyway, here I've unofficially graduated. The mode will be switched to "officially" after 14th of March 2010, my Convocation. Once again thank God that i got an amazing career/job and I do enjoy it to the peak.

A coincident things happened, CNY and Valentine's day was actually fall on the same day (140210). Strictly speaking no valentine for me this year. As I need to return to work on 170210, I back in Sitiawan on 150210.

Reached home on time after office hour. Friday night, dad and sis reached home at 10pm something. Sis, mum and me had hair dying :) Although I was exhausted, I kept my eyes open and mind awake just to enjoy to the fullest during this season when everyone was busying on cny preparation such as packing, cleaning, decorating, purchasing new year goods and so on, real fun!

The next day, which was CNY eve, started our journey to granny's house in Seremban at 8am. We stopped by at a coffee shop for breakfast, the dried curry mee was simply awesome instead of my order har mee.

Hang around and chit chatting with uncles, aunties and cousins. The scenes of gathering, sharing and joking along could hardly be seen except for these special occasions. Man, that's comfortable and precious. Firecrackers and fireworks all way round, although the sounds was quite annoyed me but it looked brilliant in the sky. The awesomeness of the reunion dinner that night was more than satisfactory with variety of foods prepared by the ladies (our mum). I was on called whilst enjoying the heat, wow :)

1st day of CNY, after took for family pictures, we went to temple as usual in the previous years. There were vegetarian dishes being served. After that, my time was preserved for Claire and Kah Bee as we planned. Ivan (Claire's bf) picked me up and headed to Claire's place where Kah Bee had been waiting for hour. Loads of fun with few stupid pictures, will be uploaded in facebook soon. I kept argue that Ivan might be my relative because his sur name Yong too, I elaborated any reasons from reasonable one to rubbish just to grab the winner prize for no reason, damn childish and pointless..but they enjoyed the stupidity created by me..sweat..1st met with Ivan, not bad we can communicate quite well without shyness, see i can talk very well with my friends' boyfriend all the while like brothers, haha! Besides, the farm-kind of hat owned by her mother where she used to wear it under the hot sun while watering the vege farm, it became Mexico typed hat after wore by me like the Mr Potato/ Pringles, and they laughed like shit..haha..i was still the joker among us..Kah Bee handed my bday present to me, another pig again, whahaha...thanks alot! That's so cute! I named the pig as Daniel, but due to some coincident issue, will change his name again. Then, she intro her GPS to us named as Stephanie, sweat!!!! Besides, Claire made us wishing cards with meaningful words:

Everyone hears what you say,
Friends listen to what you say,
Best friends listen to what you don't say.

2nd day of CNY, I went to temple again for enriching personal luck of the year because zodiac pro saying that tiger's lack of luck on tiger's year. As my uncle from Singapore heading down to Sitiawan, I followed him as my work was started on 4th day of CNY. I playing and having fun along with my cousins in the car, especially the youngest cousin boy who is 11 years old, he is intelligent with rich knowledge at his age, we could discuss lots of things like sciences, technologies, natures, human behaviour, cultures, traditions, government, politics, countries, history, geography, games etc..come on, i was still blur at 11..gosh..but he is great i tell you..

I never joined any class gathering after being 16 years in Sitiawan and now, I joined. The timing was just nice as right I reached stw at 8pm, I straight went to classmate house for the gathering bbq, the class of 5SD. Gosh, never see them for years man, everyone is working already: doctors, pharmacists, chemists, optometries, food sciences, IT computers, accountants, engineers, business & marketing, teachers, that's all in our class. I could see the maturity of us which different from the past because some of the bookworms become so talkative and open minded to talk with despite their past personality. Tze Chern parents were extreme friendly by sharing their long-yet-well-kept red wine with us, one of it was 27 years old wine, wow, older than us, we greeted the wine as gor gor..haha! I was slightly drunk that time but i need to rush for another gathering with my batch band ji muis..gosh heng dai more suit me okay..come on..

2nd round of gathering, went to a mamak for yum cha: Me, Huei Ling, Yee Huai, Huei Teng, Ai Yoon, Wan Mok, Pei Fang, Meng Lee, and Chia Huei's cousin, some of them absent. Good time.

Next day, same group of us went to Meng Lee house for a kid's game, er i dunno the exact name but that's what they played during the recess in primary, I never play that b4 because in primary I joined the boys for ping pong/ table tennis, cool? HAHAHAHA.....but anyway, i still joined them that day although not so pro and end up being laughed..who cares, haha..

Afternoon, me n huei ling went to Pangkor to visit shao hang as he is currently at the recovering stage. He was depress as he cant walk much and most of the time staying in his room on9, he wishes to look for friends, he wishes to walk..kind of heart sour man..i do hope him recover as soon..strive up man! I hv promised him to let me know whenever he needs companion and i will be there for him in Pangkor, because he is the closest junior of mine..as close as my brother..

Wednesday, start work! After work, went to ipoh to look for my ex as my present was there. Took my dinner at old town treated by him. The present given was a watch with a maple leaf image, not bad not bad. Jia Yin wanted to meet up but it was a lil too rush for me plus i dunno where's her house, sorry Devil, see u in Penang okay, haha..

Thursday, went home early after office hour as I've promised my sis to assist her in driving. Mok Seong and his friends wanted to meet up with me that night but I refused due to exhaustion and wanna spend at home instead of outing.

Friday night, Huei Ling and Chia Huei came for my parents. As Chia Huei just came back from Egypt with her bf family, she shared her trip and the photos uploaded in fb. She ate alot at my house: Jolly shandy, dried pork, cake, cookies..hunger filled her since the Egypt trip due to the unpleasant food..After that, we shift our location to Uncle John cafe, crapped all night long, they both have their own good boyfriend, sweet and stable, overcame lots of obstacles until now. Honestly, i never feel that happy for very long until i could forget about those things temporary, u know what i meant.

Saturday, family day, canceled off all the friends' date. Dad cooked us chicken rice, wow family brand is always delicious with 100% freshness and incredible rich chicken taste in every portion of rice, credits by the smoothies steamed whole chicken matched with ginger as enhancer, awesomeness!

At night, Mum cooked us steamboat accompanied with beers, SYOK! They took jolly shandy, oh kids; I took Tiger beer, oh adult, whahahahahaha....stupid! Again, homemade steamboat contains all good stuff in the soup without limitation....unlike at those steamboat restaurant, u need to save ur wallet thickness.

Mahjung at night with family, yor i never gamble and i dun wanna break the record, but my mum n sis insisted to gamble, no choice, im not that calculative with family, so sacrify some cash for the game and gained the laughters, why not? (arrrghhh gambling isn't my cup of tea)

Not gonna state much about my resolution here. Family and career are at the 1st place for sure. Another thing, no relationship temporary. Yes im trying hard not to think back the past too often, and sometimes i manage to step off from the shadow. Im sure that the hope to return is zero, so what for relying on a hopeless empty crust that stop my way and ruin my life..no matter how unfair, disappointed, depress, angry, upset, exhausted and frustrated, let it be..Strange thing, I feel like im not very demanded for wanting it back anymore. Somehow my heart has getting freeze and die toward it. Although lack of someone to care and love, although lack of huggies and cuddles, but I feel relieve :)

Don't worry, I won't stop myself from trying new relationship (if i have), and im sure i can get someone to share my heart with. Yes! I found my way and mind..

Happy Chinese New Year 2010 & Happy Tiger Year (my year, proud!) !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pan cake

2010-01-30T21:23:00.001-08:00

Yes, dish of the day- Pan cake

Actually saw it in afc channel, and so was thought of trying out myself. I guess the look still acceptable though. That's abit too thick. Will be improved in future.

Afternoon & night talk with Chia Huei

2010-01-30T07:43:00.000-08:00

One of my best buddy since secondary sch, Chia Huei, back in Sitiawan. This fellow forgot the way to my place *WHACK*..
I treated her my hand made jelly with nata de coco, guess what she said not very nice but she had actually dumped two bowls into her stomach..proved that she was bluffing because of jealousy on my talent, it's ok im going to forgive her :p
We began with any topics naturally..endless topics as we never meet for almost 1 year if i'm not mistaken..the feeling was good, we are still as close as the previous days without any odd unfamiliar feelings..
We shared about our job in order to understand further regarding to each other fields and the recent condition..
Congrates to her as she has a very nice pharmacist boy friend right now..she went through up and down before this..that's a great suffer for her when she was at the down side..yes her 1st bf did leave her a very deep impression as they've been for 4 years, but he's kind of self-centered person and my fren has to obey and follow in whatever circumstances and decisions..the guy had another gal during furthering study at overseas. This is a penalty in my love's philosophy. However, my friend told him if til end he will still come home, she willing to forgive and forget what he did. He was crossing the line, and yet my friend could be so tolerable as problem had crossed her limit too. Til the end, she knew that things had step into her territory and there is no turning point, anymore..she made up her mind and leave the guy..
At night, we went to mcd for supper again to continue our talks..enjoyable day..
Except my family, colleagues, and few of my best friends, I don't really feeling like socialize or interact with others. I'm lacked of patient for them and rather to spend my time alone though. Because i feel pointless to talk so much and kind of wasting time...

You

2010-01-17T05:21:00.000-08:00

Hv a talk and drinks in a coffee shop..

I just want you to feel better..

I miss you..

Loads to share..

But I not sure where to spread whom to tell..

At the end I logged on to yongsookfong.blogspot.com

That's my choice, as always..

I **** you..

My piglet

2010-01-09T21:41:00.000-08:00

Finally, i willing to pour my pig with detergent in water bath. Feel so bad to wash away the so called "great" smell :p

Let's the picture do the speech..

Looks happy

Looks like foetus in mother's tummy

Can u see how dark is the water?

Sauna

Enjoy it!

23rd birthday (30.12.2009)

2010-01-09T03:53:00.000-08:00

Trillion of thanks for those whom wished me on my big day. Actually i never plan to celebrate or anything, anyhow i just wan to spend the moment with my family which sufficient to fully satisfy me, easy huh?

In the office, received Mei Sze msg in a sudden:
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOOK FONG, don't tell me u r working on ur birthday"
I replied "Why not? birthday does not mean that i can break the rules, haha.."
For me, I feel thankful and grateful that I got the job, that's already a big present to me, so..work smartly Ysf.

One of my colleague saw my birthday status in Facebook, everyone in the office wished me, such a surprise one..

Okay, I had a date with the trombonists. They requested for section practice. I rushed all my way to sch right after my work done, immediately. Right i reached, i saw poh yee at 1st. she told me no one were going for the practice except her. but i decided to carry on the practice with her. right she opened up bandroom's door, it was dark inside and i saw a cake with a candle on it..

OMG..SURPRISE!!!!!!!

Right i walked in, they played the bday song for me with trombone..i couldn't find them as they were hiding behind the chairs and percussion..awwwwwww....deeply touching from the deepest of my heart til my blushy face..i was BLUSH!

They were very funny, by singing different version of bday song to me..it made me laugh out madly..we chat together while eating the cake..such a good time with them..

Here is the pictures of birthday gift given by them..thankssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FONG

Front

Back (from Kelvin Har)

Cake from them (the last piece for Kelvin, haha)

Passing out present

A very memorable and amazing day I had..Thanks for the effort guys..and poh yee will be the best actress as i trust her firmly when she told me no one coming for practice, haha!

Night time, went to econsave with mum and sis to buy bbq ingredient for following day count down+bday celebration with family. Loads of fun..

Special thanks to my family, fiona, wei ing, huei ling, ashley, hsien hui, kah bee, kong boon, jing fen, mei sze, hooi tit, kar mun, kelvin har, soo siew, chow kong, chee mei, poh yee, xin ning, sing ean and all of you whom wished me in Facebook, my pleasure.

You guys made my day, what a blast :)

Jia Yin's blog

2009-12-13T00:10:00.001-08:00

Feeling so touch after reading a blog post about me from a friend of mine. i gonna paste it here. Thanks Devil! haha..

12月13日

今天的题目是我的一位朋友：杨淑枫
她有拜托我写一篇关于她的，可是我没时间好好写，所以才拖到现在。呵呵...不好意思啦。

好啦。开始。

杨淑枫，指明说是二十二岁又十一个月的人（这可是她很着重的哦）。她留了一头长发，不过怎样都不比她的身高来的长。也许，她这身高个子会让人觉得难以亲近，可是，她并非如此。她在我眼里，说好听点就是女生梦寐以求的身材，说的难听一点就是瘦骨如材。哈哈...她又瘦瘦又高高酱，难免会让人联想到...木材。哈哈...

虽然这人瘦瘦的，但她的心底很好。不能说对每件事情都很宽容，但她就是喜欢帮助别人。她喜欢她已习惯的事物。虽然她不介意接受新的事物，新的挑战，但每当回到原点，她总会觉得安心。这可能是因为她是表面上看起来很有自信，但内心空虚的家伙，所以才会从身边最熟悉的东西得到安全感吧。

除此以外，你别看她平时很善良。其实，她不好欺负的。她天生就有过人的能耐。对任何挑战都不会轻易低头。我虽不是看着她长大的人，也不是认识了几十年的老朋友，可是每次看她处事的态度，就有种敬佩的感觉。有很多事情，我自问面对不来，可是她却能轻松解决。她对好多事情，包括失败（某些失败）都不会随便放弃，并给予最后的努力她才输得甘心。所以，她是打不死的蟑螂，除不完的野草。这形容总对吧？哈哈...

她很爱家。这是我了解到的。家就是她的全部。她很爱她的家人。她也很孝顺，真是难得的年轻人。她应该算是绝种了的恐龙吧？哈哈...很少年轻人可以和家人有那么密切的关系了。

接下来，我其实有句话想说很久了。是发自内心，所以希望不要介意。我个人觉得，她其实很美。我在她身上体验到，也看到所谓的“从内心散发的美”。真的。就因为她心地好，容易相处，所以我才会酱觉得的。绝对不是胡扯哦。哈哈...

之前是把她形容得很好，可是，她毕竟是人啊。所以她也有缺点。哈哈哈...她虽然坚持，但有时候会变得很固执。当她固执时，她不会愿意或把外人的话听进去。所以要说服她并不容易。我认为他最大的缺点应该是这个吧。也是我唯一看到的缺点。

呃...说到这里，应该完成了我的使命了吧。哈哈...总括来说，她是我的一位很好的朋友。无论她是二十三岁还是二十二岁又十一个月，她像是离我很近（年龄）。由于她很健谈，所以也变成我诉苦的对象。哈哈...有时真的替她觉得可怜，要听我唠叨。像她酱的朋友，忘记了就是白痴。哈哈...所以我才不要做白痴。呃...我还是会珍惜她啦。我的朋友——杨淑枫。

Salary released! - 30.11.09

2009-12-05T06:31:00.000-08:00

Got my very 1st salary, and without any hesitant i text-ed my sis for dinner at night.
I treated them a dinner at Lido's restaurant, our favourite place since we were kids.
Those were the orders.

Butter prawn

Sambal Kangkung

Beancurd

Black pepper fish fillet

A very satisfying dinner i could say. Work hard for my future and family!

Ipoh for shao hang- 29.11.09

2009-12-04T23:31:00.001-08:00

Shao hang was involved in a road accident and being admitted to Manjung Hospital and further transferred to Fatimah Hospital in Ipoh lately. Ah Boon picked me up at 12pm together with mei sze, david and wei hoong along. the 3 guys (2 engineering students + 1 pilot) chat mostly about engine stuff, so 2 of us the biology ppl gained extra knowledge with opened minds, tat's quite interesting though. By the way, we did talk something regarding to our own field too.

Searched Wad 1C Room 101, he did for 5 times operations already. His fibula and tibia bones were broken, and flesh had been teared away. When i visited him in Manjung Hosp, he was very sick and blur, so exhausted until he could not really speak that time. But after being sent to Fatimah, he was managed by a popular Orthopedic doctor who is a Dato. His condition getting well as operation goes.

Shao hang and boon are great buddies since primary. I guessed he was happy to see them. Spending time and chit-chatting with shao hang. His mum never leave him and alwiz be his side time to time, mums are great i tell u. A nurse requested for clean up, he asked for delay but couldn't make it, and so we hv to leave.

Due to starving, we went to jusco's kenny roger for lunch. 5 of us ordered for the same set which considered worth, it included a quarter chicken, spaghetti, side dish and a cup of soft drink. Completely filled up my tummy. Went to popular bookshop for paper cutter.

Time to go home. b4 tat, we went to meet a supplier for wen wen's camphor oil. Heavy rain on the way. Nice journey with them and i do sincerely wish shao hang to be recovered very soon.

Take care shao hang, my great junior. God bless you.

Band practise

2009-12-01T05:33:00.000-08:00

Ah boon requested for marching band's pieces practise. Driving in the freezing fresh morning & headed to mei sze house. After a discussion with mr tan, ah boon and mei sze, practise started. After a run through, the members got the concept and idea on how the pieces' style actually own. I guided them the best during the section practise, i played and demonstrated along and lastly, i wish that they can really absorp and digest my words to apply on any pieces..stay strong trombonist!

I fall asleep at 9pm during the taiwan golden horse award ceremony screened from the tv, i guess my fuel had been fully consumed in the morning. haha!

CK & MS

2009-11-30T05:40:00.000-08:00

It was another weekend, 3 days break due to Thanks giving day. Chow Kong picked me and Mei Sze up at 9pm. Struggling between secret recipe and "swing" cafe (not clear bout the cafe's name), and end up we stepped into swing cafe :D There comes to our purpose- Yum Cha.

Youngsters love yum cha, hanging out and chit-chatting like no one business. It feels really great to spend with someone u feel worth to, where at the same time your appears and existence are being recognized and cherished. Unless u are comfortable with the group, or else that means nothing.

We ordered for marble cheese cake, moose choc cake, mocha cake and banana boat. we were sharing while eating. we spoke watever topic without any limitation or deal, tatz how natural we hold and act all the while, my dear mei sze and chow kong, they are great, seriously.

CK's dad called up for 2nd round supper. even though tat was the 1st time be seated together with his family, we talked like we were so close already. Warmness surrounding and two plates of ikan bakar was served infront us without any hesitant.

Back home and watched "Home deco" with mum and sis, I love being with them.

Capricorn

2009-11-28T02:39:00.000-08:00

CAPRICORN (The Passionate Lover)
Love to bust.
Nice.
Sassy.
Intelligent.
Sexy.
Predict future.
Irresistible.
Loves being in long relationships.
Great talker.
Always gets what he or she wants.
Cool.
Loves to own Gemini's in sports.
Extremely fun.
Loves to joke.
Smart.

A comment from an old friend

2009-11-25T06:39:00.000-08:00

An old friend who i lost contact for years..
We shared our past and the current..
She commented that the previous Ysf was quite nice, and once decided for a particular matter, there is no turning point and remain stick to it firmly..
I'm stubborn..
That's a good personality if i apply it at suitable scenario..
Yet, im not..
U-turn was not in my dictionary in the past..
and now..im surrounding the Round-about repeatedly..
it shows how deep i'm stepping in..
just because u're the special one..

But.....

Yeah!

2009-11-19T19:28:00.000-08:00

Yes!!! Bee Yoong is hired by Hovid. I'm so damn happy for her :D

My 1st career

2009-11-14T22:22:00.000-08:00

In the previous days while i was still studying, I was working as law firm's clerk & promoter which jz to fill up my holidays and earn some income. Then, I had my internship at general hospital. After graduated, the 1st company that im entering & entered now which related to what i've studied for years is Carotech Bhd as QC Chemist, my very 1st career.

Okay basically there are 2 chemists and 8 engineers in the office, our job are inter-related to each other. Been started working since a week ago, everything is going well. I'm currently trained by the another chemist, im lucky enough to meet her as the way she treats me is so polite and obedient. i cant disappoint her.

This company is deal with pharmaceutical + nutraceutical + biodiesel. The raw material used would be palm oil. Palm oil has been proved to be beneficial to human health which high in HDL and low in LDL. The active ingredient or compound will be extracted from the palm's fruit and furthering for nutraceutical products processing. Dietary supplement would be the main and major yield. Besides, biodiesel production which name as Carodiesel, is produced by the chemical reaction between crude palm oil and sodium methoxide.

Currently i've learned for those analyses, there is long way to go and it will be more complicated as days go, i believe that i can make it to success.

To be updated very soon.

My career

2009-11-06T20:47:00.000-08:00

I went for two interviews last Thursday and Friday, respectively. The feedback of mine would be not an easy interview but was not over tough if everything is well-prepared. I've a very great experience from the 1st interview at Progenix last few weeks, and so it built my confidence to face the another two.

The 2nd interview of Progenix (Penang) was held on thursday for the position of Toxicologist. A Toxicologist's doctor was my interviewer. b4 that, the HR staff told me that it would be a tough interview. After that, i found myself enjoy alot and not that tense as i imagined. He asked lots about toxiocology terms and theories..in respective to the scope of the job. At the end, he roughly explained to me the coverage of the work. They hired me.

Friday, I went all my way to ipoh for Carotech's interview (Perak). Overnight at a friend's house. I met the HR staff in the morning, who made contact with me for the interview, she is great friendly, she told me that the interview would be a tough one. She calmed me alot..wat a considerate and nice staff i ever met. I was interviewed by QC Manager. As experiences go..i spoke with better confidence, lastly I'm being hired as QC Chemist.

A very coincidence thing was, bee yoong was actually managed by the same HR staff as mine..while bee yoong was under Hovid, Hovid is the parent company of Carotech.

I've decided to go for Carotech because it's more affordable for me in daily expenses and saving, plus i will be working at lumut's branch, so i can stay at home and convenient ever. As for Progenix, rentals, petrol and transport are the factors that need to be spent. In addition, my interest towards Carotech increase dramatically.

Jz went to hv a look at the work place which located at industrial area. It's near to the port. Good luck to my self in my career. It will be the new stage of my life..
Thank God.

Grey's Anatomy- 2

2009-10-15T23:39:00.000-07:00

Gonna share the content of the drama tat i had watched ytd night.

It was about a brain tumour patient who is a doctor. She was on her way to consider whether to go for the surgery anot. 2 conditions: if she decided to challenge the malignant tumour with surgery, memories might be gone, even a very simple question or object could be evaporated possibly in a second right after the tumour been removed. 2nd condition is tat if she lets the tumour take over to decide her life span, she will be dead in 3 months time. struggling task to be done which was very time challenging.

okay, the doctors did a test on her. tissue which close to the tumour were immunized, to check whether she still able to rmb common things around that she should know. The outcome was that she lost her personality, memory, and the ability to speak.

she was in dilemma. she was willing to take up the war previously, but influenced by some advises from different opinions'.

her husband asked Derek, if Meredith (Derek's gf) facing the same problem as his gf, what kind of decision would be made? Derek suggested for surgery.

till the end, the patient made up her mind for surgery. although she knew tat during the tumour remover, tissues close to the tumour will subsequently be cleared at the same time which cause memory losing, she believed that her appearance is needed to support her husband's life, as promised in the wedding.

Part of them undergo birth, old, sick and eventually dead, but there is a portion of them face the dead even though they're still young.

That's life..

Cherish it..

Grey's Anatomy

2009-10-15T09:11:00.001-07:00

Goodness, drama tat i've craved for long appeared on ntv7 in a sudden after Home Deco show. Cool~

:)

Hacked?

2009-10-15T08:31:00.001-07:00

I couldn't log in to my facebook for 24 hours already, do maintenance take such a loooooooooonnnnggggg time? i was suspecting it might be hacked, but my operating system is supported by original karpersky anti-virus security, my laptop will scream out loud if any virus or trojan were detected. So that reason couldn't be certified. what else? i've changed my password as what facebook suggested, but still..

Anyway, let's share smtg cheering. soo siew called up and so i went to sch for guiding on their practise. their sight reading were quite good. great attitude and manners by them were comforting.

In fact, was watching Home Deco while typing this. Ok bed time, good night to love one~

Perlis pre-posting

2009-10-14T21:28:00.000-07:00

Yeah, gonna meet my Perlis friends very soon. Let me see, it has been 3 years being separated at different corners but the comforting feelings toward them never fade, and yet we're still being in touch. The memories remain lying in my mind. No doubt, u guys were meant alot to me. Innocent, pure, selfish-less, & open-minded, i never felt any hard feeling, fear & worries mixing with them, cooperation and teamwork were always on hand.

Looking forward for the Langkawi trip with them. I guess there will be sleepless and long-nights pillow talk..

In my head, there were few friends who always be my side, listened to me & cheered me up. I believe those precious memories were gifted by God which will be lasting in my heart forever.

Guys, see u soon!

A picture of Langkawi trip back in year 2006 when i was still in Perlis. What a fatty me. Gosh!

Ok, going to meet my long-lost junior now, and preparing for evening band practice.

Till then..

Back in band

2009-10-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

Received msg from ah boon & so i had decided to back in sch to visit the juniors. ok in fact i'm old enough for them to recognize, unfamiliar faces from year to year, uhh i've become an oldies..sad lah..

Luckily, glad that there were few juniors and the trombonists who i still familiar with & keeping in touch. Although not very familiar with each other, but still, there was a bond and tie between us, and the feelings had eventually been calmed & adapted.

Fetched Sean together and headed to sch. Practiced for a concert piece, hopefully their technique can be brushed up very well b4 the concert.

Ahh..my facebook couldn't log in, been noticed that there was a maintenance service, what the heck my friends were playing at the moment..how come i was the only one who being screwed?

bahhh..sleep early..night..

Psychiatry

2009-10-13T05:44:00.000-07:00

Used up few days to complete a drama "A Great Way to Care", it was about specialty of mental health, and the medical term is known as psychiatry. Medical movie alwiz inspired me..

Usually, ppl out there think that mental disorder patient categorized as the abnormals. what an incorrect information. From my point of view, psychiatry is actually related to a person's personality & characteristic, it subsequently affects and influences one's behaviour.

Take an example, when you've been asked to consult a psychiatric doctor, what is ur reaction? most probably you will reply by telling that u're normal without any sickness. For me, that's nothing big deal. Such a sedentary lifestyle in the presence, cause everyone has slight mental disorder, a light one, agree?

Okay for my case, i think i've a slight Obsessive-compulsive disorder. This kind of ppl believe that life cannot proceed as normal while the imbalance remains. Yes, this is what i suffered. In fact, it wont affect my usual daily activity but i rather hurt myself sometimes. For example, i want things to be arranged accordingly in a straight line; i've to complete things that rolling in my mind instead of leaving aside; most of the time, i can't focus on many things at once, instead i can only focus well on ONE particular thing; sometimes i wan things to be 100%, or else i'll keep blaming & blaming & blaming, it's kind of tiring..perfectionist? partly i guess..

It's normal, i guess u've ur own unique personality too. Mental disorder could be inherited or acquired. So, be relax and open up ur mind, dun be stressed up or else the consequences will be pessimistic.

Be easy.

The interview

2009-10-07T21:19:00.000-07:00

Ok, jz back from the interview at Progenix. Basically, it was a tough interview so far, but i learned alot, a blastful experience. It's a newly built company in the industrial area. Meanwhile, served by a malay guard who own a great manners.

Been seated in a meeting room and pleased to fill up a registration form. 2 interviewers and me were in the room. yea i was nervous & i looked tense to them, really sweating inside. The 1st question being asked was "plz introduce ur family background". so i briefly introduced every family member of mine..after that i told about national level marching band competition. so he asked "do u think the 1st runner up award that owe by ur sch was due to ur existent?" it made me a sudden stunt becoz i never expect such question to be tested, luckily i could come out an answer "the time when my sch got 2nd place, i was a senior already, so i try my best to teach & share my experiences with my juniors, and it's all about teamwork since there were 80 members of us..it's not individual effort, things couldn't go well without team's cooperation & heart.." so how do u think?

Next question was "how much do u noe about progenix"..and i roughly described the info that i've read in their website. "what is ur view toward the 2nd independent body which known as QA?".."do u love dogs and cute animals?they might need to be killed by those toxic tests." "from the experience of ur final year project, how do u judge the consistency and accuracy of the result obtained?" "what makes u apply to our company?" "can u briefly elaborate ur final year project?"

This company is the 1st GLP (Good Lab Practice) in M'sia. All the novel chemicals and drugs' product will be sent to this company & undergo several toxicity tests. it is actually a great chance & i'm very interested, jz the matter of accommodation & transportation, they're waiting for my conformation.

I hv to make up my mind..

All the best!

Progenix Research Sdn Bhd

2009-10-07T08:31:00.000-07:00

Hi there,I hv been invited for a job interview tomorrow, this position involves the coverage of pre-clinical toxicology, clinical chemistry, pharmaceutical and biotechnology. The company, namely Progenix Research Sdn Bhd, placement in Penang, with their office based at UK. Well, im very interested with the position offered, hopefully accomodation and tranportation will not be a problem. Wish me good luck, God bless me..

Mum's big day

2009-10-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

Yeah, my mum's lunar birthday is exactly on mid autumn festival day..early in the morning, we had roti canai as our breakfast and treated by me..it's a great to spend times together with family..indescribably blasting..

I went for present hunting with dad in the afternoon..we went to a gift shops..i found a cute little container with maple leaves pattern for the uses of pepper and salt..but my dad thinks that my mum dislike such thing..instead of using it, rather, she will keep it..After that, we decided to buy orange odouring aroma candle..it aids in relaxation..Besides, my dad bought a surprise for my mum too..i will tell u later :p After that, we went to get a yam cake which is my mum favourite choice.

Night, we took a light dinner so that some empty space remained for yam cake and moon cake. Let the pictures do the talking.

Yam cake

The posers

Pretty woman, going down the street..

Presents

PIGSSSSSS-my dad surprise :p

yeah that's me

Click here for more pictures sharing

Never been that happy for long..

Happy birthday mum, I love u :)

A piece of mind

2009-10-01T10:19:00.000-07:00

Staying up late in the midnight..crapping with a friend and junking with a junior of mine..while waiting for the live messenger updating, i blogged.

I haven't blogged like this in ages, i couldn't even allow to breath for a second previously. Lot of thoughts and plans which i wish to accomplish it with joyousness now.

I should have enjoy my life..but yet, i was depressed in the past. Well, i shouldn't be behaving so as in fact, everyone been given a chance to live once in a life time, why dun we choose to be happy, instead of upset. In short, i shudn't be freaked out by a small matter.

I'm doing quite fine lately, if there is nothing related to you. there is no way for me to check ur latest info, photos and news..it's really screwing my nerves off, thousands of thorns poking on my cardiac muscle, aching..aching..

Guess that i'm not going to face u anymore, tatz an great idea to delete off my profile from ur friend's list..at least i wont be seeing those updates of urs..frankly speaking..its scary..

Pros and cons after breaking up. at least my ears are free of scoldings from ppl who not even qualify to do so..and stop doing things that i dislike..i dun like to be forced..there is no reason tat i've to follow ur thoughts and actions..i'm jz the way i am..u can't change me..

However, u r still being part of my heart..i recalled..
i did stop to begin the relationship..but u demanded..
u promised not to repeat my past "tragedy"..but u've repeated..
u said u wont be leaving..but u left for times..and returned at the end..
u gave promises..but u broke my faith..and yet I'd been told to adjust according to condition..

A broken vow..
now, i'll let u go..
i'll stop asking why..
somehow, it's a way to keep..
i'll let all ur promises end....

I'm tired of it...............

Life is wonderful..i will be moving on the path that belongs to me..

-ysf-

Quote

2009-08-30T20:42:00.000-07:00

"There is no formula to relationships. You have to be negotiated in loving ways, with ROOM for both parties, what you both want and what you both need."
"You have had special time with him/her and you no longer have what you had with him/her now. But you want them back. You never want to stop... "

A quote that totally fit my feeling lately..

Well, how actually a relationship mean to me?
Once in a while we were so close to each other..
Next second, we could evolved to become anonymous..
It sounds ridiculous..
But the fact do really happen..

Walk away from relationship phobia..
Learn from the "story"..
"Love, Respect and Honour to yourself"
Can i really apply it?
I doubt....

Temporary..
I will not approach..
For the sake of goodness..

The shadow has been gone for age..
Hopefully one day,
It will be disappeared entirely from my sight..

Finale

2009-08-26T23:14:00.000-07:00

Here comes the 14th week, a week to conclude everything..
especially i'm in final year final semester..
thesis submission deadline..
featuring the oral presentation..
that usually leads to goose bump..
mixed feeling..

For my oral presentation:
Chair person: Dr. Say Yee How
Panels: Dr Alan & Dr Haresh

Msg from wai peik:
-Dr Haresh is kind and sure pass for all the students
-Dr Alan will ask alot of question if he knows ur part well, or else he will be sleeping
-Dr Say is a talented shooter..sure die..

I've to strive for the best but not to disappoint them..
proof to myself that i'm actually manage to present it well..
clear off the syndrome of thesis phobia..
and face the challenge with a war costume dressing..

Here I come..

Macro lens with cyber-shot 2.0 MP

2009-07-10T20:25:00.000-07:00

My mobile phone's screen had actually broken b4 n changed to a cheaplak screen which cost me 190 bucks, it's truly screwed me off..I tried out by shooting the plants at home and accidentally i got the effects as shown:

Bear in mind, it was just 2.0 megapixel

:)

Outing with lovely roommate

2009-07-10T10:38:00.000-07:00

For the very 1st time, we had our shopping together. Actually i have tons of stuffs to be done. The weather was really warm and just wanna chill out for a short while. And so, i decided to leave my desk for a couple of hours.

The 1st outlet that we stepped in - Rom. She wanted to buy some clothes for rewarding after the released of PTPTN. so rich. She had bought for 1 jacket and 2 shorts.

Next, we went for our dinner at secret recipe. Here are some of the dines and desserts we indulged in.

Her dish - Grilled mushroom chicken

Mine - Tom Yam spaghetti

Chocolate indulgence

Mable cheese - my favourite

Everything was appetizing.

After that, we went to Elianto. ok i was not so interested for those stuff, but who care, i might try something new now :p we played alot with the testers. One thing that caused me goose bumps was the promoters' make-up, special?? they looked like peacock perhaps, greenish and purplish eye shadow, can u imagine that? :p

PDI and Padini Authentic were the next stations. I prefer the clothes for both of the outlets. It looks casual, simple, sporty and the most important thing, they are not "lala" styles. I did not buy anything, except that my roommate had bought 2 items which i felt that really suit her. Great deal!

After bought some snacks, we left at 11pm.

It was a tiring day but we had great time to spend with each other. what a blast!

Later :)

Once again..The friendship..

2009-07-08T22:05:00.000-07:00

I'm gawking on it..once again..my mind is haunted by this word..a very hostile gesture came toward me..i feel insecure..

Very doubtful about her, b4 this we did not talk for almost half year, i had recovered from the pain. New semester began and she came to me, we talked..

Whenever she needs my help by showing me a very pity kind of look, i was there for her..for 20+ times i guess? i never wan to be so calculative..but her action sometimes really screwing my nerves..i feel like after she grabbed any advantages from me, i will be brushed off.. and the very irritating gesture will eventually appear..

Today, things repeated. A grp of us were doing the presentation slides. She acted like a boss keep on ordering (wtf)..ppl felt uneasy..she never try to be more thoughtful & understanding..whenever she criticized the others, but actually she was nothing different as they were..

To be honest, the world will be very peaceful without her existence..I'm craving tat this few months can be ended as soon as a bullet, to get off from this troublesome population..

I'm definitely tired bout it..

Again and again..why cant u jz eliminate off ur f*cking behavior..

It's killing...............................

WTF!

Human behaviour

2009-06-30T19:52:00.000-07:00

Do u guys know what kind of personality and characteristic are actually owned by u? Since there were few incidents happened on me, i was managed to conclude mine.

I knew tat the way i treated ppl was somehow kinda extreme to the peak..either 0% or 100%. If i feel u were nice, i will treat u 100%; If i feel u were bad after all, i will turn to treat u 0%. i think that's my weakness. After i judge u with my own prediction, your impression to me will be hardly altered. But then, if u were treating me nice and cause my heart thawed, a good impression will somehow elongate. Simple?

Another case, ya i admit i'm not a good looking person. During hanging out with bunch of friends (girls and boys), i could see that there were a portion of guys (i think most of them) tend to be only entertained those pretty gal, so i was being ignored so often. Freaking hard feeling in the past, but for now, i will never care on how others look and judge on me. I jz need to be myself and i live for my own self, not for you. For example, i dislike skirt and most of the girlish stuffs, so what, as long as im comfortable with wat i do, wat i think, what i hv, tat's all the matter.

Guys, dun be a foolish unthoughtful shit.

:)

End?

2009-06-25T07:40:00.000-07:00

It's almost till the end..to be completely eliminate myself from such a irritating matter..facing it with a peaceful mind..prepare myself with weapons and metal costumes and get thru billions of thorns tat might come against me..there are two main tasks that i care the most and am going to fulfill it, the 1st is by working hard to provide or supplement my family with a better life, the 2nd is to go for MPYO audition which is my long-awaited dream. My passion toward orchestra music has never been faded before. I believe in the sentence where:

" Family and Music will never betray you".........

Do u agree? It has been proven base on my experience.. but u might have ur own stories..

Be easy..

Afraid

2009-06-10T04:15:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid of it.
seriously, i wish to quit..I hv been so exhausted of it.
I've no choice to make up any decision.
I'm not happy.
I want to quit.
strength and urge, plz help me a hand.
I wish everything can come to my advantage to do as i please.

Moonlight Serenade

2009-06-06T02:03:00.000-07:00

4th of june, the theme of the night, "Moonlight Serenade" was proudly presented by Perak Society of Performing Arts International Ensemble. I had been told by Lee Jia Yin regarding the concert, and decided to get some fresh air there instead of staying in the city of stress all over the weekend.

B4 that, I lost my bag in university. There were nothing valuable for others in my bag and til now, i hv no idea bout the purposes of the stealer, no point at all..I hate the fucker. Stuffs in my bag were calculator, spec, lab coat, pencil box, water tumble, final year project journals and drafts. All these are valuable for me.. my calculator that had been used for 8 years; spec that bought by mum, memorable; lab coat that accompanied me through out my uni life; pencel box, water tumble, mechanical pencil given by dear; final year project full of heart and sweat..It could be gone in not even a second..heart bleeding..

4th of june, after re-do my project experiment, i took the train to klcc. after got my new bag in the shortest time, and I rushed to pudu raya immediately and took 2.30pm bus to ipoh----main destination.

The music was beautiful, warm and romantic atmosphere..few familiar pieces such as moonlight, piece played in nodame show (dunno watz the name). The vocalist was great, brava! she brought the shows to the peak..

Great one.

Way home..

2009-05-12T09:13:00.000-07:00

After my last paper, together with claire, took the fastest and shortest path to pudu raya..so i can reach my home sweet home as quick as a bullet. Once i reached pudu, as i expected, bunch of ticket sellers were filling up the main entrance, forcing me to buy their ticket. Okay usually i dun even care bout tat, but the wind blew from opposed direction today, i bought their ticket. After taken KFC as my brunch, I was puncher enough to wait at the platform on time..1pm ticket..and the bus arrived at the platform at 2.30pm (hhhmmmmpppppp, BE PATIENT)..and eventually, "moved" at 3pm (PATIENT!!!!) OK i had put in lots of effort to be a better person. After that only i realized that the bus will be headed to ipoh before sitiawan, means i was hanging in a huge garden. ok thatz fine since I had put in 60% out of total 101% patient, why dun jz be more kind and gentlemen add in for another 10% more..on the way from ipoh to stw, this so called "express" bus switch the channel to become move-stop-move..i was kinda fadup..my mind being tortured becoz i was being stuck in the bus for hours..luckily, my mood wasn't too bad, becoz the distance toward my sweet family and home was nearer.

On the way, a malay aunty sitting beside me, was complaining to me about her daughter in law..

The aunty wakes 4am every morning for baking and sell it off..due to an accident, she is not manage to out for selling, therefore it replaced by her daughter in law..she is doing the baking as usual, and her daughter in law take up the selling part. But, few months has gone, the money never return from the daughter in law..obviously, she took it away..And this cause me to meet this aunty in the bus where she decided to leave kl and head to stw for her elder son.

Be respectful to the elders..even a simple moral value could not be applied, what for to be existed as a group of universe as these kind of ppl jz a rubbish that wasting the space..?

Think twice..

till then..

Stress

2009-05-04T04:10:00.000-07:00

Susan Boyle

2009-04-22T07:43:00.000-07:00

I am simply get so impress with Susan Boyle performance in Britain Got Talent 2009. Susan Boyle, 47 years old lady originally comes from a small town or village, with an extremely ordinary appearance, stepped up the stage and wanted to be a professional singer. The panels, especially Simon (judge from american idol) and the audiences were doubted about her.

As the music of "Cry Me a River" began, a fantastic and grand voice was flowing through and surrounding the hall. Speechless..it was impressing and touching that i could ever say..audiences were clapping from the beginning til the end of her show..she is absolutely owning an vocalist-type of voice..it touched my heart..

this is the linked:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

It tells that never doubt and judge on ppl out-look, provide a chance for others and patiently get the true side of them..

She is awesome..incredibly Stunning!

Boys vs Girls

2009-04-17T05:02:00.000-07:00

Questions that i hv been thinking for a couple of times..and i decided to jot it here..

1. Why should gals suffer from menses pain instead of boys?

2. Why should gals dressing with bra which is quite annoying?

3. Why should gals behave obediently but boys are allowed to behave roughly as long they are comfortable with tat..?!

4. During freaking warm summer, boys are allowed to take off their clothes, but the gals couldn't..?!

5. In the session of making out, the gals seems like being bullied by the boys..why cant the gals owning penis instead of vagina? or why cant the boys owning vagina instead of penis?

6. Boys are allowed to go after the gals who they hv crush on them..but when the gals go after to the boys who they r interested, it's called as "cheap", "ashame", and "valueless"??

7. Gals need to wear the troublesome gaun for the ball or prom night, but the boys jz required a comfortable tuxedo to attend..

8. As i hv studied immunology in my uni, i got to know that there are several diseases tend to be in higher percentage toward gals..

isn't it unfair??

....

Twilight

2009-04-14T07:56:00.000-07:00

After watching it last december, my strength of desire pull me towards the release of Twilight DVD, and i got it finally. Previously, i got the soundtracks from my friend. In short, it's cool to be part of the special one among the ppl..it could be awesome, somehow it might be weird in ppl eyes..

catch up soon..

Twilight rocks..

Knowing

2009-04-11T22:19:00.000-07:00

This is all about knowing. It was directed by Alex Proyas and starring by Nicolas Cage.

"What happens when the numbers run out?"

A girl named Lucinda, had a special ability among the human being, by able to predict the future. Lucinda was a student of the elementary sch. The sch launch an activity where the students were asked to use their creativity and imagination to predict the scene of the future after 50 years. Everyone was drawing, except Lucinda, wrote a full page of numbers. The teacher, Ms. Taylor, felt weird on Lucinda idea. She rushed off Lucinda to submit the paper. All the products were kept into a container, known as Time Capsule. It will be opened it back after 50 years. Lucinda was lost in a sudden, everyone was looking for her. Ms Taylor found Luncinda, she was hiding herself in the gym room and scratched on the wall with her bloody hand.

50 years later, the Time Capsule was released. All the drawings were given to each student. A boy name Caleb got Lucinda's drawing, which was full page of numbers. In a sudden, he heard noisy voice whispering into his ears, and saw a guy wf black coat standing far away from him. Caleb was living in a single parent family where his mum had passed away. In the midnight, Caled father, Jonathan (John), saw the piece of paper, and started to find out the mystery of the numbers. Result showing that all the numbers were stating the date of the tragedy happended, and the number of death toll. Those were the past. Unfortunately, there were remaining 3 tragedies will be happened in coming days.

John gone to fetch up his son caleb after the phone call. While John was having bad traffic jam on the road, suddenly, an air plane was out of control and crush on the land. The scenary happened in his eyes. The date and the number of death predicted was exactly the one on the paper. He started to believe the mysterious number. He felt helpless and anxious.

He went to look for Lucinda daughter, Diana. Diana knew about everything since early and his daughter Abby actually having the same condition and ability as Lucinda, and same to caleb. Diana was worry about Abby safety since she was the only daughther she had.

The underground train was crush, and that was the second disaster.

John and a fellow professor forecast, that a massive solar flare will reach the Earth soon, and the final disaster on Lucinda's paper will indeed be global in scale. John and Diana went to Lucinda house and saw the word "everyone else" meaning that everyone will be dead on the coming disaster. The word everyone else was represented with the number "33" instead of "EE". The 4 whispered guys came to insult caleb and abby who were in the car. They intense to ask caleb and abby to follow along. It stopped by John.

They decided to hide under the cave, which might be safe from the solar flare. Conflicts occur btw john and diana, where john got the messenge from Luncinda to hide in Luncinda house. The 4 whispered guy got up Diana car and drove off with the kids, when Diana was having an argument wf John in the phone. Diana being knocked down by a trek during chasing the whispered guys. Till the end, John met caleb and abby, which had been told tat the whispered guys were actually come for rescue them away from the disaster. But, only caleb and abby were specially chosen, who able to listen to the whispering. John and caleb felt bad to separate, the scenery touch my heart. John said:" You and Me, Together, Forever...." caleb and abby left....

Since early, John had a bad relationship wf parents. On this second, they hugging each other tightly, facing the disaster together. Although ppl were dead at the end, but the power of love will never break forever. Elsewhere, Caleb and Abby dropped off in a peaceful golden ground where free from pain and disaster.

End of the story. I dun very understand about the 4 whispered guys were either alien from other planet or angel.

This movie is quite interesting and impressing. For u, do u wish to predict or know about the future? For me, if you were able to predict the future, it's sort of worries and u tend to avoid anything bad instead of enjoy the life meaningfully.

Till then....

Loyal??

2009-03-28T20:46:00.000-07:00

In a better word, I am loyal. In other word, I am stubborn.

-Loyalty killed-

The "bull horn"

2009-03-25T03:19:00.000-07:00

Since when that i hv been staying there, and yet my stubborness really make me sick..couldn't stay happily in such a wonderful life..or shud i say, magical life?
I was somehow felt tat once in a while, but my nerve has been frozen..its my problem..i knew it..
I shouldn't blame anyone, including you, God, parents, and the law of nature..keep on blaming why can't a couple that loving each other to be attached till the end of the life..or even more..i was jz simply too stubborn..there is no 2nd word to describe bout my personality except that..
What's more, u r doing something which is for the sake of my goodness, everybody understood including kai ning..and of course, I understand you..but this old lady with the age of 23 and i do really mean it, this old creature brain is made up of rocks..wf metallic dressing..so now u can imagine why my head was born to be huge..*bitter laugh*
You are tough, wf ur courage to make the 1st move to another stage of ur life..and i know im somehow loosing a big step from you..span btw us..immature me..feeling ashame..
23 years old creature is still at the junction of crossroad wf the traffic light emitting red..she turns to the back and recalls the sweet and unforgetful memories..the route of love that had walked by her wf her soulmate..tears dropping..that was now become memories..at least there is still a remaining ash..
Old creature couldn't move backward at the crossroad..tatz one way ticket and plenty of cars blocking her way..she is filled with uncertainty..

Human is complicated..

2009-03-05T04:30:00.000-08:00

I get so frustrated with human behaviour recently..
Anyway..everyone owing their specific own style..no doubt, human are special..jz the matter of good or bad..somehow, i am trying the best to be good wf anyone..especially to those who i appreciate very much..perhaps tatz the different between ppl from country side and city..sitiawan, a small town which consider as contry side..i believe frens who i met here lasting forever..but not the same as i expect for frens who i met in city..like kl...
I was jz kidding but end up being answered with a bad gesture..which make me feel so mad..she never treats this to others but jz to me..i knew it..maybe becoz im a joker..everyday laughing n having fun around like a clown..too easy-going n eventually get bullied easily..this is wat i experienced..
Again n again trying hard by put in high effort..i am a human too and i do have feeling..so can jz plz respect me?

I will get back my dignity....

so sad........

Silence - the purest music........

2009-03-05T03:54:00.000-08:00

I love silence..its best suit with the playing of tracks in my laptop..surrounded within my soul..by the way..my shadow will be disappeared soon..

Pageanty In Wind -- valentine day

2009-02-18T04:45:00.000-08:00

Ipoh Banquet Hall, a place where left a lot of sweet memories for me..I went for 3 times..the very 1st time was the ballet performance on 18st nov 2007 ..2nd time was MPYO tour concert on around dec of 2007. the 3rd time..on 14 feb 2009 valentine day for “Pageantry In Wind 2009”.

so it started….

Got up the bus, i was so quiet in the bus..big contrast compared to my juniors..they were kinda enjoying..

Rehearsal started..we went through every piece..and my lips get so tired in a sudden..I played badly wf my solo during the rehearsal..disappointed..

Went up the stage and enjoy in playing..I started to get so nervous during the interval..becoz of the small solo part..that i dun wish to spoil this concert..(i think it too serious..haha!!) non-stop practises at the back-stage.

Second half started..take a very deep breath..no worries..i will get the support from my dar..looking at u and my panics reduced drastically..wat a powerful feelings..haha..

Overall, I done it better than during the rehearsals..but i wan it even better with huge improvement..

Brava for Su Yin! nice Csardas marimba solo by her..Great and splendid!!!!! same goes to Meditation from Thais by Mr Ho flute solo..their tones were just simply so beautiful and warm..I love that....

After the concert.. i saw 2 red devils behind u walking towards me..1st met with the red devil (jy) and another red devil aso (kn)..haha okay im very sorry that i "pek dai" u both..=p

thanks for those feedback...and congratez to mr tan that the concert was held successfully....I was very enjoy on the stage and wishing for the next concert......

Juniors were photoshooting happily in the bus....i was in silent..to old for that =p

-end-

Happy birthday sister..

2009-01-31T04:35:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday my dearest sister..enjoy ur day wf me okay..HAHAHA..IM UR PRESENT..

Dearest grandma

2009-01-31T03:29:00.001-08:00

Mum had told me something regarding my grandma and my aunty. My grandma is staying in seremban, place where i first come to this world.
During my childhood, I love to hang out wf my aunty's family. I mixed around wf her daughther and sons so called my cousins. We were close for some times.
Since long time ago, my grandma used to take care of them. Thus, she has deep passion and feeling towards them. Last 2 years, they never come back for reunion dinner. So during this chinese new year, she was hoping to see them....
Finally, they came....
They came without giving any call..and the foods prepared were not enough....
My grandma asked: why never tell me earlier b4 coming so that I can get prepared and more variety of food..
Aunty: As u noe we usually will come back at 2nd day of cny..
Grandma: u never come back for 2 years edy..
Aunty:...........
Aunty: I never owe u anything.....

These words are hurt....

I am very disappointed wf her..

my grandma wanted to see her daughter so much, so called my aunty, but she is so calculative..$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Last few days, I was being told that grandma actually has lots of things to worry..but keeping to herself instead of spreading out..she is getting older and older..

Whenever she is sitting and day dreaming..or smiling broadly infront of us..I could still see the deepest side of her..I feel heart broken..

Till here..my tears rolling in my eyes..
Eventually....
it falled....

-ysf-

Depressssss

2008-11-29T20:15:00.000-08:00

A month before sch reopen, my symptom of depression visit me on time, it will never been late b4. Now, and again, I am depressed. Why? A stimulant to force me on adapting busy study life. I never avoid the course that I've chosen, i jz feel so frustated with the surrounding, the ppl, the food, and in conclusion, I HATE KL. Normally, youngster love KL, entertaiment city where fulfill their needs, their passion, their joyness and so on. But I'm the extinct weirdo.
I dislike busy and rushing place, even their walking speed are far more quicker than expected. And yet, it happened in a very natural manner. Tatz the phenomenom.
Training life here is the right choice of mine! I love this place. I love the moderate life style. Fresh air here fills in my nerve which make me happier. No doubt.
Im just, not satisfy in everything which related with KL, I never felt tired in complaining that how much I hate there. I should not be there. I've tried my best, but still, i couldn't find my happiness tatz belong to me. Thatz why, my time was only given to studies.
Previously, something which belongs to me made my life till the peak, thatz the Mod in my graph, the happiest! But currently, its not mine anymore. My graph becomes unstable, climbs up and flows down rapidly..unconscious mode..
Im still in training period, i should be happy. But its about to end soon, and Im in depression, what should and what could I do? I can't explain and express how i feel..

Y.S.F

SPM candidates 2008

2008-11-10T04:55:00.000-08:00

I'm here to wish all the SPM candidates, Good Luck & Best Wishes and may God bless you guys.A very special one for Fiona, here are some words for you..

"....First of all, best of luck and i wish u could get through every circumstance & difficulties during this tough period...u are a tough girl and be confidence like how you are..trust urself that u are great and gorgeous..smart and intelligent..the people had prayed for u & the remaining one needs ur effort..Once again I will pray & accompany u every moment..Last but not least..you are the best..God Bless you...."
Y.S.F

Industrial training

2008-10-20T03:44:00.000-07:00

Well, I've had my training for last 3 weeks, this week is the 4th. Basically, the training period is within 6th of oct until 20th of dec. I have the opportunity to work as a trainee at pathology lab of the general hospital. So far, im quite enjoy with that. As long they let me to try on every part of the process in the lab, rather than jz letting me to LOOK at them, it's all that matter. This week i'm doing my practical in blood bank lab.
Let's review about wat i had done in the pass few weeks. The very 1st day i stepped in the hospital, felt so lost with my direction as i never been there before. i asked a staff there, and was told him that im a trainee where shud i settle my registration. He brought me to path lab directly and i felt a lil' weird but anyway, i chose to trust him.
While i was waiting the head of department to organize my roster and duty, a chinese staff came to me and told me about the future of mine. he said that there's more opportunity in singapore if compare to msia. For my course, S'pore is more developed and advance. so most probably, i hv to work overseas. But u noe wat, home sick is really killing me.
After that, the ppl incharge ask me to work at biochemistry unit. work at the counter for the 1st day, all about receiving and grouping the various kinds of specimens.
as i know, there shud be another 2 trainees who are same university as mine having intership in the respective hospital too. after an hour, our "lovely" supervisor mr haji baixxx, brought the 2 trainees along to the lab as where i located on tat time. i went to consult him but end up mumbled by him due to i never went to register b4 i start to work. well i think i've left a bad impression. the 2 trainees i mentioned, lai ken and bee yong, with their kindness, i was showed to register at new block building. after settled everything and once again i went back to haji office and handed the offer letter to him.
After received my roster, i was sent to histology/cytology unit. Finally i got the "location" that i shud be in. What a troublesome day.
Basically, all the staff are considered not so bad. some are friendly and some are cool. but as a trainee, im not a big baby who nit to be fed, im here for my practical, im here to learn something new, something related to my course, something related to my future job, something about my days n life. so i know that i need to be independent, need to be motivated, and the courage, passion and eager of learning.
Well, i hv to stop here due to my housemate is taking turn to use the line.
Stay tuned!

KLCC shots

2008-10-11T03:19:00.000-07:00

Months ago I went to KLCC with my friend for a walk. I had shot some pictures and modified it with lomo effect. I won't be lazy and stingy to share it in my blog :)

Ladies shopping scene

Choosing clothes

Infant tranquility

In lomo effect

Granny with her grand daughter

A guy was enjoying his ice cream while waiting for the train

Y.S.F

My sketches

2008-10-10T06:24:00.001-07:00

I love artistic stuff. There was once i went to a bookshop and saw a shelf of sketch books. Exciment fills on my face emotion and i bought myself a green cover sketch book. I had sketched some drawing and might share it here.

Y.S.F

Jiun Shan's DSLR

2008-10-03T20:46:00.000-07:00

Canon EOS 400D

Jz having breakfast with Jiun Shan, and i had my 1st touch with her DSLR. She offered me to have a try, it was great i tell u. Eager and desperate to own it..her camera's model is Canon EOS 400D. It's cool! She offered to schedule a free time and meet again for some shoots..looking forward..

Music

2008-09-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

My coach gave me a call and ask me to join the band concert in nex year, yea i hv accepted the request. Glad tat once again i can join and involve in concert again, since the PSWO (Perak Symphony Wind Orchestra) has stop functioning for quite a long period..keep on waiting for it to re-alive..but still..dun hv any news yet. Never practise for a long time due to my busy study schedule..sigh..wish i can manage things at once..anyway..these days i hv been resumed on practising..looking forward for the improvement..
Well, my trombone pal, Huck Aik, had offered me to join PessBand music camp, a Penang orchestra. It's around 10 to 20th of december, after that the concert will be held on 23rd dec.Its a big big chance for me to improve actually, Huck Aik even gv me priority regardless for the audition. If i can join it, he will be my tutor for the week. Hardly to meet up wf him, and i never meet him after FWO concert during year 2003. I cant attend for the camp becoz its during my industrial training period, i cant take any leave within the period or else i will not provided wf testimonial.
Another plan, I hope to go for MPYO (Malaysia Philharmonic Youth Orchestra) audition, me myself still dun hv the kind of courage & confidence, & aso the preparation for it. Its dragging me. I still not very sure wat should i do now although i hv my way & i hv my direction..ppl ask me to take it as a challenge or hv a try..but..will i succeed?
The passion towards trombone never fade before..I love classicals so much. This is my interest, my hobby, my life. That kind of agressiveness still remaining..as warm as the sun, as bright as the moon light. I'm alwiz grabbing chance to join any orchestra group when someone offer me, but i still need to manage my studies b4 thinking for tat. I was in dillema..
This is my dream. I hope i can fulfill somedays.
I miss the time when i joined FWO (Japan-Malaysia Friendship Wind Orchestra) in year 2003. This was where I improved the most. Huck Aik was there too. Many kind of skills had been taught. Though it was fun but, same time pressuring. Great experience I ever had.

Trombone

I wish to get my own trombone soon, cant afford for the moment. My studies still need my loan.
PSWO was the another place where my music life developement resumed. Met alot of players from various places, different background, different sch. They are nice and humble in learning. We love to share. Kevin Thompson joined us during our launching concert in year 2006. I miss the ppl there, i miss the rehersals, i miss the performance, i miss the kind of belonging. Although different background, but when turn up for the rehersal, we are in one.
I hope someday, the practise could be resumed, so once again, ppl who love music can meet together to enjoy the music.
Thatz all for now.

I am moving.

2008-09-21T06:06:00.000-07:00

So, finally i had finished my final exam ytd. The last paper was Culture & Communication, I predicted and expected that i could do well, or should i say I'm suppose to do well. Went to sch on time and glance through my notes. When i stepped in the exam venue, everybody was already on their seat. oh i was late. i find my seat but i couldn't. So i tot i had stepped in the wrong venue. I went out and switch to the next door venue. Again, i was mistaken. Everybody was looking at me and u can imagine how embarass I am. Walk back to the previous venue, i couldn't find my seat. The seats were full with candidates. Actually there were some of them got in to the wrong venue. So actually they were sitting my place and cause me to stand there like a fool. I had been switching the seats for 3 times. At the mean time everyone was writing their info and identity on the answer paper while i was walking here & there. I was sweating though. I was in anger and panic. Its really bullshitting. my hand was shivering during writing. This is how the external factor had influenced me during my last paper. Well, i still able to write something, as long as my mind is not totally blank. But not the way as i expect.

This morning, waiting the arrival of my parents. The purpose they came and fetch me up was to shift all my things back to stw because nex semester i will move to genting klang and yea finally, good bye to TBR (Taman Bunga Raya). At last can leave and go into a well-new environment soon. Perhaps its good for me either physically or mentally.

Here is some pictures of TBR.

The table during my exam period

My bed, little piggy, and black white pig

My cupboard & bottle

After shifting all my stuff into the car, we went for brunch wf my aunty and uncle at Ampang well-known yong dao fu. Obviously it is an old shops and from the appearance i could assume that the shop has quite a long time history. From wat i seen, the shop was crowded. The variety types of the yong dao fu were really full with the "essence". No doubt and no reason to ask why does this shop doing good business all the while. It already operating since the past when my dad & mum were holding hands and dating at the shop =p

Truely miss my mum dish. The dinner filled my tummy with "soul" at last.

Went to yee huai house, get to meet wf meng lee, omg my long-lost classmate, she quited from nan hwa since form 2. And so bad tat we never contact since then. Yee Huai bronght me some tea which was bought from England. Taste nice and fresh. Chit-chatting wf her regarding to studies and planning for the future. She is currently finding a job.

Thatz all for today.

Good night.

Short break

2008-09-11T21:32:00.000-07:00

Currently im having final exam. 3 papers had over, hopefully i could score it well. Still have 2 more papers to go, b4 that i must take a short rest b4 moving on. im worrying for my previous papers. During preparing i was suffered from mental breakdown, just hope that my mind wont concure by that anymore. It was bloody helpless.

Well, ytd have a chat on the phone wf Fiona, she told me a short story from her trial exam paper, its very meaningful! Perhaps i can blog it here for sharing. The story was hardly to happen or occur in real life, since nowaday the world become so reality and oftenly lacks of cares and loves. Anyway, will share here when i get to know it in more details. My best accompanion during my stressful period, thank you Fiona.

Fiona funny yet STUPID look =)

My another best companion, little piggy. She is really cute!

Exam exam..!!

2008-09-04T09:59:00.000-07:00

Tml will be the 1st day of my final exam. Gosh time past in a flip of eyes. Getting nervous but yet not in mood. Who like exam? I guess most of you dislike exam as myself too. So what for im still here for preparing exam? why dun just hang out like others do?
Well, because it is "duty for the sake of duty"(by Immanuel Kant) which means Categorical Imperative..so..JUST DO IT!!
Anyway, GOOD LUCK to me :-)

Just for you..

2008-09-04T02:55:00.001-07:00

Life without love is just like a trombone without slide..
Life without love is just like a trumpet without valves..
Life without love is just like a harp without strings..
When the love for a loss, it can make you die..
When the love is at the peak of sweetness, it brings endless happiness to u..
Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle..
It is rather a beautiful reminder to the couples by missing each other at separated places..
And how strong the true love could be..
Love do not need to express by words.. either verbal or non verbal..
It is simply the strength of feeling in ur heart..
A powerful love means everything..
It could even lead u to become brave that comes from the courage of love..
I miss you.. Where are you? Could you still able to hear my voice & feel my soul?
Trillions of words in my heart which i hope to sound out in the silence..
But..
No one could hear me.. where am I? A seperated world from the others?
U gv me precious moments..U bring joyness to me..U gv me advises..U share ur art work wf me..U share ur experience wf me..U share ur anger wf me..U share music wf me..U talking jokes wf me..U worry me..U scold me by not fulfilling ur advise..U guide me..U sing to me..U hold my hands..U hug me tightly..U calm me down..U teach me english..U bought chocolate for me..U cook for me..U support me..U accompany me..endless moments..
Unfortunately..
We need to make a hard decision..
To separate..
For the sake of everyone who involved..
Never been blaming whoever and anyone else..
Feel sorry to hurt ppl besides you..
Wanted to apologize..my guts weaken my courage..how sucks am I..
Sorry....
I love you..
25.7.2008 - 12.25am

My mind

2008-09-04T02:54:00.002-07:00

Ohh man..so boring wf studies..gotta fadup soon..hope to get out of here to take a deep breath..just saw some pictures which were taken in beijing that uploaded by amc members..it seems so interesting & fun..as u know i like all those cultural stuff..great..and i am sure that they already put on a good show wf their performances..congratez..
Studying wf others is too noisy for me and i could not fully concentrate..though studying alone is too boring and i would day dreaming..haha..seems to be so complicated..how nice if you can accompany me along..but..i still couldn't have it..sigh..of coz not ur fault..i never blame u..i could understand ur situation too..so i bought strawberry lassi to accompany me in the night while i was studying..this lassi make me think of you..memories are in my mind and heart forever..huggies..
Many ppl outside there do not know how to cherish what they are having now..though nowaday the youngsters could "pick up" and "let go" so easily..lolz..truely salute to u guys..although i cherish the precious thing of mine but i still have to let go for the sake of everyone who involved..it is hard man..really..
"Boring" does not to mean that i hv nothing to do..it stands for i couldn't do wat i like,wat i wan,wat i wish,wat i love to..and keep on repeat the same thing everyday------>so called study..see..my life is so boring..wish to take a long break for vacation..me myself alone will do..haiz..need to continue my revision now..lolz..
Yong Sook Fong
July 20, 2008

Love in the moonlight

2008-09-04T02:54:00.001-07:00

The moon is hanging in the sky..

i am watching it at the window..

thinking of ur chubby look..

u are as bright as the moon light..

shinning at me & show my way and direction..

the sweet smile and laughter from you..

which make me miss u more & more..

wish to hold ur hand together..

until for the rest of my life..

the road is silence..

a cat is in hunger..

finding food from the dustbin to survive..

it is for their life..

good night..

July 18, 2008